It's really encouraging that you aren't letting yourself lie to yourself to justify using. If that was me at a weak point, I'd have told myself I was going to the butchers for ingredients, then blamed it on the butchers when I ended up getting high. The fact that you have that self-awareness is really encouraging man. Keep making the right decisions bro. I know that feeling exactly - after getting clean and your brain feels fresh and you know your tolerance has gone down, using suddenly seems so much more tempting. It's times like that I force myself to remember what it really does to me. Sure, I could feel good for a day, but I know when I wake up tomorrow if I've used I will feel just totally despairing, depressed - I'll be in fucking hell, and it's not worth it.
Never been a big Led Zeppelin fan to be honest!! I should have known that though. Ah well, at least I can feel young now!
Hahaha, dude I'm a disgrace I know. Led Zeppelin are from round these parts as well, so I really should have known. Curtis, the way you are having all these challenges arise and blasting through them is awesome. A couple of times I've worried you were about to lapse and then been surprised and relieved to find you've conquered it for another day.
All of us are starting 2021 in the best possible way! I've had to overcome my head telling me that I could use for today because tomorrow is a new year and what better excuse, but I've just had to remind myself that I do NOT want to start 2021 by repeating these last 2 weeks, and my chances of suddenly having my self-control regrow tomorrow if I were to use today is practically 0.