I have no problem with AA. I like it in fact. I listen to AA speeches while I drive around drunk............................ silly right?How do you feel about AA? I would never use it long term and I don't buy the whole program but from rock bottom doing 90 meetings in 90 days was a real circuit breaker for me. That daily commitment really helped me stop drinking for long enough to get cleaned up and straight-headed. Cheaper than rehab.
I reach out to my uncle who is the only family member who has conquered addiction. Now I'm ashamed to tell him I relapsed.
I kept making excuses because AA in the US is still cancelled and online only. Online meetings seem like a joke to me. I need to be around real people....
I need a sponsor who is on my ass.... but even then... I know myself. Complete sobriety is scary as fuck!!!!!!!!!!!! I could quit drinking but I'd just smoke a lot of weed.
Complete sobriety scares me more than death or jail....
I've been high every day longer than I've been alive at this point (comparing to my childhood).
I'm so fucked.