snafu i agree with ateliers suggestion of doing 90 in 90. i did it in na when i got out of rehab and keeping that daily focus, and making such a huge commitment to recovery, is a great help imo.
before i went to rehab i'd been high every day for longer than i'd been sober every day too. now its probably about 50/50.
right now complete sobriety scares the fuck out of me too. feel really sad and tearful. i'm listening to the last podcast on the left about kurt cobain and they described heroin as a drug of despair. not as in it makes you feel despair, its a symptom of despair. thought that was pretty accurate. not sure listening to a podcast with constant references to heroin is a good idea right now.
honestly if i wasn't certain it would be absolute shit i'd probably try and score right now. might be a sad cunt and just eat a packet of neurofen plus.
before i went to rehab i'd been high every day for longer than i'd been sober every day too. now its probably about 50/50.
right now complete sobriety scares the fuck out of me too. feel really sad and tearful. i'm listening to the last podcast on the left about kurt cobain and they described heroin as a drug of despair. not as in it makes you feel despair, its a symptom of despair. thought that was pretty accurate. not sure listening to a podcast with constant references to heroin is a good idea right now.
honestly if i wasn't certain it would be absolute shit i'd probably try and score right now. might be a sad cunt and just eat a packet of neurofen plus.