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I never remember my dreams but lately I've been having this nightmare that always wakes me up, so I remember it. It always starts off I'm in some kind of dimly lit structure. Sometimes it's like an industrial type building with high ceilings, other times it's residential. But it's always a weird sepia color outside. Sunset shifting to twilight. Dark, shadowy inside.

I'm immediately panicked, with the overwhelming fear that something is coming for me from outside. I try to strategize. Do I find a hiding spot? Do I barricade the doors and find a weapon? Do I go out the back and make a run for it? What if it's waiting for me there?

I always end up running. I'm scared to look back because I know he's there. I just keep running. But my legs give out, collapse, sit up and see him lunging at me. He's like a Tarkatan/humanoid vampire type creature. He's on top of me trying to rip me to shreds but I'm somehow able to hold him back. I pull a knife from my back pocket and start slicing away at him.

About the time he is about to kill me, I turn my head to the side, look off into the distance, and see a mushroom cloud.
 

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Oh do I love dreams
As a boy at the age of 16, I had an Out of Body Experience when I had the flu similar to that Pink Floyd song Comfortably Numb lol (When I was a child I had a fever My hands felt just like two balloons Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand This is not how I am) I know it's not exact to dreams that song the part (I could never explain, you would not understand) ring true to me for a very long time. My Out of Body Experience was so real and psychedelic at the same time it led me on a life long path of looking for answers and I'm in my forties now.
mal3volent It always starts off I'm in some kind of dimly lit structure. Sometimes it's like an industrial type building with high ceilings, other times it's residential. But it's always a weird sepia color outside. Sunset shifting to twilight. Dark, shadowy inside.
Now that is a dream! I've come to the conclusion after reading several and several books on out-of-body, dreams, and amongst other similar subjects in relation to all of this even started reading new-age shit and yes that's what it shit. In my opinion, the most logical sense is science. However, you can have fun with your dreams. I always refer people if they ever had an out-of-body experience or something of that nature to read this book by Robert Peterson Out of Body Experiences how to have them and what to expect www.robertpeterson.org.

I have reoccurring dreams all the time I have sets of reoccurring dreams. However, what most people call reoccurring I called continuing dreams. I have friends in dreams sometimes I think it would be embarrassing to tell people who are some of my friends in my dreams all they are our perceptions of what you think that person is in reality. Like, for example, I'm friends with Maynard James Keenan of the band Tool in one set of Dreams they Don't really recur they continue its not the same context they continued he has his own personality we have our own relationship he's like a friend in a different world but in this world he's a famous Rockstar weird right and in the dream I'm not a fanboy. I'm not dreaming about idolizing we're having real conversations about real things and doing real things very rarely does music even come up or what he does in his professional world pretty weird right. I guess you can say I am humble dreamer haha. But if it was real life I wouldn't know how to act in front of him. I would be very uncomfortable because one I am a fan and two I have these fuckin weird dreams about him all the time but he is no the only one I dream about that I know in real life. I also have other continuing sagas I guess you could call them cuz there's a difference between reoccurring and continuing reoccurring is something that somebody would consider a nightmare is an example I hear a lot. You never hear this I keep having this great reoccurring dream that I'm screwing this chick and Mickey Mouse pops up right at the end and I wake up. Both are the same they both reoccur but what is funny is if you can recall the dream better and better through practice it's not the same dream there's subtleties and differences every time if you could go back to the first time you dreamt that dream it would be a lot different than where you are at at the last time you dreamed it just the same theme. Continuing is You pop in and sort of where you left off. For me, my other continuing dreams have other people that I know or don't know that I've gotten to know it's like a whole different world. In the only reason and think I'm able to do this is the years and years of book research keeping an open mind during that time. I just woke up I feel the best when I wake up naturally not waking up to alarm bullshit it will fuck my day and happiness. I jumped on here BL I just recently started posting on BL I was talking about belbuca and pain medicine and wanted to see if I got a reply and I see a post on dreams so thank you mal3volent.

I had a major surgery you want to talk about weird weird dreams wait until you have major surgery and the next two weeks every time you close your eyes it's like a hit of acid++++ It seems like the best creative parts of your mind light up along with this psychedelic twist to it things make sense that normally doesn't and you remember them quite well or at least I did. There's actually a lot of chatter on the internet about this it an after effect of the anesthesia and the trauma to the body. These dreams were so intense and I was so in tune with what was going on there was a point where I was having a dream realized I was talking out loud it was a lucid dream, lucid dream also is a normal thing for me. So I turned my phone on and started recorded my dream. I wish the audio came out better but. I had a western accent and it was in the time frame of the 1880s very cool to listen to. There are little techniques to remember your dreams one of the easiest is when you wake up don't just get up and start going about your day this can be hard if you wake up to an alarm all the time matter fact this can be hard if you only sleep-in on the weekends. When you wake up lay there for 10 minutes or for however long you think it needs to be I don't like to put time limits on things but try not to fall back to sleep. That is when the dream is the freshest my technique is not to try and remember but remember at the same time just kind of stab at it a little bit the dream that makes sense it is kind of like you're the kid listening in on your parents by the door and once in a while you peek around the door just to look at them talking when they're not looking you hear it all, okay that's a terrible analogy. Here's a little better analogy just lay there and realize you had a dream and think about the feelings in it the surroundings was there smells what time of the day it was, was it day or night the sensations of it all in the dream fuck the meaning that will come later trust me. If you have a hard time with recalling that's okay things come easier with practice and don't get frustrated if you can't remember certain things.

I think dreams are meant to be enjoyed even the terrible ones I like the terrible too a good dream that went wrong as you say nightmare cuz all in all when you wake up you're okay it was just a dream. Today when I sit down to see if anybody responded to a post that I wrote on here from yesterday. I was still thinking about my dream last night. I do understand quite a bit about dreaming for myself and when people think dreams have meaning like somebody going to die or stupid shit like that, that's all it is stupid shit. Randomness in coincidence happens every day in real life also you got to remember when you're dreaming so much is going on there could be something that you dream about but you don't remember and at that moment in real life an event will come up and trigger that memory you had that was similar so you sum it up as a coincidence and try and put meaning behind it because we are rational humans. I'm not saying don't acknowledge it look at it as that's cool. What drives me nuts is when I'm at work or wherever and the subject of dreams come up and people start talking about coincidences and meaning in dreams especially coincidences. Coincidences or something that will happen in real life to and that is similar event to an event you don't have to put meaning behind it there's a lot going on in this consciousness we call life. Dreams are fun little ways to have fun while you sleep the scientific stuff behind it is even quite interesting but that's like a book to read not for me to explain. Sorry for turning this into a long post but this is one of the subjects that I love. One more thing I believe dreaming and understanding more about your dreams and having a bit of control the way you carry your life and relate to your fellow human being respect others all these things not only make you a better person but makes you have some fucking kick ass dreams someday I'll get there someday.
Dream on Brothers & Sisters
 
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Whew, hey man, welcome to Bluelight. I'm trying to make it through the wall of text but paragraph breaks help!
 

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Nice, much better. :)

When mickey mouse pops up is it like suddenly you're screwing Mickey Mouse, or that he just shows up nearby like "hey what's up guys?"
 

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Thumb up your butt

There's a sacred area in the middle of the desert that if you say these certain words in a certain way it becomes a spell.

There are these two hillbillies just starting their life playing marbles. These two hillbilly jackasses came up with this game call thumb up your butt. See one of these Hillbillies had one of those uncles that has one respect. He is what you would picture just a dirty old man, someone, you would not leave alone with children or livestock he didn't understand borders and boundaries. So this little hillbilly kid was playing marbles and had a plumber's crack and his redneck hillbilly uncles that probably got hit in the head with a shovel when he was 12 for stealing candy, will he thought it was a good idea take advantage of the situation. Took his thumb and lubed it up with a quick thumb suck and rammed it up his nephew's ass fast and hard. As the chaos came about of the kid screaming and yelling and the uncle laughing his ass off. The uncle telling him and everyone else haha you just got dumb up your butt stupid shit pull up your britches. Well as hillbillies are it became a thing a game on each other and their friends and sometimes a random victim.

As these Hillbillies got older they started working the carnival and thought it would be a great attraction called Thumb Up Your Butt (remember this is a dream) and of course as the universe is aligned in a dream way. The two hillbillies were told about this special place in the middle of the desert that you can make anything happen. So these two jackasses saved up all there ring toss money. Went out to the desert make a deal with the devil if you will and started a small carnival with this Main Attraction The Thumb Up Your Butt with this big over the to Mickey Mouse looking mechanical dumb. There was no fun for the victim playing the game just pain. But funny as hell for these two hillbillies and everyone else that had that sick sense of humor. We're talking once it's in there it's like riding a bull but you're on the opposite said you're the bull trying to get the thumb off. That's a comedy act In the eyes for these sick twisted fellows that share the same gene pool.

Context this was a dream that continued for a very long time. See I had neck surgery and this was the after-effects of anesthesia the dream continued and got very complicated.

Eventually, the carnival what's closed down but somehow today saying a special saying started with ….If you get the thumb up the butt the thumb gets the butt.... Would trigger this magical thumb would come from nowhere and get the victim bending down. Then it became well-known. There were people on YouTube going over the top on this trying to get most credits and likes and to get tons of peoples at the same time to get the thumb. Trying to get rectums violated at the same time in large masses in different countries just for the credit of look what I did.

Context now like I said this was a very different Dream from normal dreams being that I had the after-effects of anesthesia in me. It eventually warped into something completely different about meaning that eventually we always get the thumb up the butt even the Universe and Multiverse get the thumb.

I told my girlfriend is the story and now every time I bend over guess what I don't actually get the full experience but I get the dumb and her saying thumb up the butt.
I told another friend about this and he said this is something that would be on Rick and Morty of them watching there Multi Universe cable TV like the show me what you got episode.
I hope you all enjoyed my dream and I hope it's sticks with you and every time somebody bends over.
Bruce
 

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My dream recall has been really bad lately and I'm not sure why. I wake up knowing that I dreamed vividly, but all that I remember are flashes of imagery. I think that I've been dreaming earlier in the night than usual, so by morning they've faded a lot.

I picked up some melatonin last week because it's supposed to help with that, but I haven't had any luck so far. I tried 3mg a few nights ago, 6mg the other night and 9mg last night. I also took it with my B-vitamin complex because B6 is supposed to help too.

Here are a few details that I remember from the past several nights:

April 16-17, 2019: "Gunman"

I was in an old 1970's-style van with a guy and realized that he was a serial killer. He had a gun and I pretended not to see it or show that I knew who he was. My dad showed up and I discreetly made a "gun" gesture with my hand.

April 17-18, 2019: (vague)

Had a desk outside near the marsh for some project that I was stressed about. Some drawers were full of silverware.
Jammed/sang with band at some bar. Wore some kind of freaky black Elvis/vampire/? costume.
Worked in store that was partly on a bus or train. Gave lady a free t-shirt.

April 18-19, 2019: "Excluded From Beach Fun"

I was a kid again and at the beach near the water. A bunch of kids were playing some game near me that involved floating small objects on a string. I wanted to join them but they wouldn't let me. My dad got mad and started punching the door of a small brick restroom or something that was right near us.

I ended up being older again and the "kids" turned into the cast from Jersey Shore! "The Situation" apologized to me and I told him not to worry about it.

I found vials full of pills on the beach and thought about seeing what they were, but fought the temptation and kept walking. (In real life I would have disposed of them somehow, but didn't think of that in dreamland.)

April 19-20, 2019: (vague)

In the back of a van. Some kind of surreal scenes kept flashing in front of me, almost like a real life videogame. They kept changing and going through different "stages" of some sort. There was something very heavy and creepy about it but I don't remember why.

April 20-21, 2019: (vague)

(This had the same feel to it as the one above, but in a different setting.)

I was in some kind of S&M dungeon or something where different acts kept playing out in front of me. They went through stages and every one was more extreme than the last. The last one involved some guy getting his head bashed in with a hammer! I wanted to leave (obviously) but couldn't find a way out.

April 21-22, 2019: "New Car"

I traded my car (which I love) in for an old Volkswagen truck/van and immediately regretted it. I realized that I hadn't even looked at the thing before I bought it, and it was a mess. It had tiny little wheels like a toy car would have, and the whole interior was caked with mud.

Sweet Dreams!!!
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Ugh...I'm back to having my "am I awake or am I asleep" nightmares.
Oh man, those plagued me for a while after my dad passed away last year (I posted some back in the spring). I would dream that he was alive again and asking me what happened... where he had been, where my mom and I had been, etc.

They were so vivid that even my "reality checks" (counting the fingers on my hand, trying to fly, etc.) were confusing and difficult to perform. Not only was I questioning whether I was dreaming or awake, but whether I was alive or dead! In a couple of them, I sincerely believed that I had died in my sleep and that's why he could see me. Heavy stuff.
 

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I had some vivid dreams last night but didn't have time to write them down. All I remember after a busy day is one where my girlfriend was being just like my ex and I realized I had to break up with her and it made me really sad. It was very vivid. I had some others that were less intense but I don't remember them anymore.

When I was withdrawing and in some post-stage of coming off of phenibut like a year, year and a half ago, I would almost every morning have dreams where I got up and fully believed I was awake, and start my day, and sometimes things would be different but usually it was exactly like being awake, and then partway through brushing my teeth or start work I'd wake up for real, or sometimes I'd wake up into another dream that was the same. Every time I thought to myself, "okay I'm really awake this time" but sometimes I wasn't and I could never determine that I was dreaming while I was in it, even though I had enough presence of mind to question it. I was sleeping so lightly because of the withdrawal. When I was using GHB I'd wake up at like 4am when it wore off and I had a dopamine rebound, and I had some WEIRD dreams that I think I wrote in this thread that were so realistic and crazy.

Lately I haven't been remembering my dreams much.
 

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I was in THE CITY and going to an all night rave, I called on some people who I knew from way back and they were underwhelmed with me turning up. The bloke's girl in particular. I made a joint and we smoked it then I realised I was tired and didn't want to take mdma and stay up all night but she wouldn't let me stay on their couch. As I lived 480 miles away and had nowhere else to go I had to go raving.

I left, walked about the city and was going down some stairs to a subway and jumped down the stairs, it wasn't flying as I was going down but I was able to sort of glide whilst upright and by clever use of ricochet and reading angles and pushing off walls I was able to get down about 5 flights of stairs without my feet touching the ground. It was erratic and a few people complained as I skimmed/bumped past them, I felt I was a bit fat and had I been slimmer I would have got past them no problem.

Then I met this guy that I only know from the web and we sat and talked and I actually liked him despite knowing he's not a good guy and having spent the previous evening in RL thinking about him and preparing e-material expose on him.
 

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I keep having really violent and scary dreams like me on top of a tower throwing a spear down to kill some kind of queen and then like the bodies switched and I was mashed at the bottom. It was terrifying. Anyone have any idea as to why we get creepy dreams like this
 

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My dream life has still been nearly non-existent these past few weeks. I tried a strong cup of mugwort tea the other night to no avail.

I even got so desperate as to slap on a 21mg nicotine patch before bed last night. (NOTE: I DO NOT RECOMMEND DOSING YOURSELF WITH ADDICTIVE AND POTENTIALLY-DANGEROUS SUBSTANCES JUST FOR THE SAKE OF DREAMING. HIGH DOSES OF NICOTINE CAN CAUSE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE, HEART PALPITATIONS AND ANXIETY, AMONG OTHER SIDE EFFECTS!)

Anywho... I slept well last night but don't remember any dreams at all, which is really odd for me. I think it's because I used to yo-yo on and off various substances such as alcohol and cannabis; now that I'm 99% clean and sober, I don't go into REM rebound the way that I used to when I stopped taking something.

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Yeah I've heard wearing a nicotine patch to bed produces the most intense dreams. I've actually thought about getting some just so I can try that out.
 

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Oh god I just had the worst dream, I think I'd actually call it a nightmare and I haven't had one of those in forever.

At first, it wasn't bad. My was visiting my family, and my dad was there, all healthy (he died recently after a long battle with ALS where he ended up 100% paralyzed and unable to breathe without a machine), and my mom was apparently in for some routine procedure. My siblings were there, and my girlfriend, and for some reason my ex and her mom came over. In the dream I was aware our equitable distribution court date was next Friday, like it really is, but she was actually being really cool. She and my girlfriend met and everything was friendly, and she was being helpful around the house. I started to feel like maybe this was going to go peacefully and well.

Then we got a call and it was the doctor, they said my mom had suddenly died during the procedure. It was like a shock wave. I realized I had no parents anymore. My mom had died. My mom had died. I didn't get to say goodbye. I started crying my eyes out and just yelling No, no, no. I was running through the house and just consumed by grief. My sister and I were crying, I was saying to her that I thought we had so much more time, I never got to say goodbye. I was thinking back to the last time I talked to her... it didn't feel like enough. I thought about how I was the oldest person in the family now. I thought about inheritance and then felt guilty. It was so intense, the grief, it felt so real, unlike most dream emotions that feel distant.

Then I thought, wait a minute... how is it that my dad gave me this news? Why am I thinking he's gone but he is downstairs, healthy? I must be dreaming. Then I woke up and I was so glad I could wake up and have it be a dream.
 

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My dreams have still been very vague and sporadic but this one I remembered...

May 7-8, 2019: "Two Versions Of Dad"

I was in the house with my dad (who passed away last year), but there were two of him; one was a younger version that was clean-shaven and a bit overweight, and the other one was old and frail with a gray beard like he was near the end of his life.

The young one was alive but appearing from a past dimension, and the old one was deceased (a ghost/spirit/soul) but didn't seem to realize it.

They were having a conversation as though they didn't realize that they were the same person, but I got the feeling that they were about to figure it out. I was worried about what would happen if they did, as if there would be some kind of catastrophic cosmic consequences (the old "don't make contact with your past self during time travel" paradox).

Sweet Dreams!!!
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