So I recently took some Molly last night, it came as a big ol cloudy crystal rock. It may have been laced with another type of stimulant (my best guess is either amphetamine or methamphetamine - have had extensive experiences with both so I'm 99% sure that's what it was cut with). Anyway I discovered about two years ago that whenever I take chemical stimulants - meth, amphetamines, etc) I am on a slippery slope to some really horrifying paranoid delusions (not the typical paranoid stuff either, I'm talking about experiencing shit that literally no one I know goes through - it goes beyond auditory and visual delusions I experience actual physical hallucinations going on where I'm feeling invisible people fucking with me (I couldn't make this up if I tried guys n gals). Along with that I get the typical people are out to get me kind of thing. Well last night and all morning and presently as I'm typing this up I have been severely paranoid. I had to force myself at 8AM this morning to go outside to go pick up my check from work and the only reason I was able to do this was due to the fact that my girl had to leave to go to work and there was no way in hell I was gonna be alone dealing with my craziness by myself (whenever this has happened in the past I've always reached the point where I had to check myself into the hospital cuz it just got that bad where I couldn't deal with all the craziness anymore). So sorry for the long post (probably due to the uppers still in my system lingering).
My question is, once I've turned myself into a pickle from a cucumber is there anyway of me being able to be a cucumber again???
(Cucumber to Pickle Reference = No Paranoia whatsoever when taking stimulants is the Cucumber and Hella Intense Nightmare Paranoia whenever I take stimulants is the Pickle)
Thanks for any advice guys and I apologize if this is a stupid question as far as me being a speed freak and missing being able to take stimulants recreationally.
Oh and my background is that I'm currently 28, I had been doing methamphetamines in the past for about 8 years on and off - more off than on. I don't know if that information is relevant but maybe the total amount of speed I've done in the past may have had some effect on my brain where I can't possibly induce stimulants anymore due to me reaching a limit possibly idk. Also I have absolutely no mental health issues whatsoever.
My question is, once I've turned myself into a pickle from a cucumber is there anyway of me being able to be a cucumber again???
(Cucumber to Pickle Reference = No Paranoia whatsoever when taking stimulants is the Cucumber and Hella Intense Nightmare Paranoia whenever I take stimulants is the Pickle)
Thanks for any advice guys and I apologize if this is a stupid question as far as me being a speed freak and missing being able to take stimulants recreationally.
Oh and my background is that I'm currently 28, I had been doing methamphetamines in the past for about 8 years on and off - more off than on. I don't know if that information is relevant but maybe the total amount of speed I've done in the past may have had some effect on my brain where I can't possibly induce stimulants anymore due to me reaching a limit possibly idk. Also I have absolutely no mental health issues whatsoever.