Oh, hey guys! Long time no see, how y'all doing? First, sorry about the long message. I've tried to be detailed enough so that you have enough information to help me and, as always, sorry for my bad english.
So, I've been on and off unprescribed Ritalin, with at least one to two weeks without then a week using, mostly because the past two months I didn't had any money to buy my prescribed antidepressant (here in Brasil Pristiq is very expensive) and Ritalin is cheaper so I've decided to use it as some sort of crutch until I go back to my psychiatrist and talk to him about prescribing some alternative to Pristiq, which will happen the next Monday 25.
Yeah, I know that I shouldn't be using Ritalin as an alternative to Pristiq, but I've been in a f*cking hell on earth, let me try to explain.
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 after I got a hypomania crisis while I was on Prozac treatment. I went back to my psychiatric and talked to him, explained that since as a kid I experienced long depressed times but also highly energetic ones, which he told that those ups and downs were my Bipolar talking. Although I've told him that I've always been that typical energetic person that couldn't focus on only ONE THING but instead I was always constantly changing my focus to, I don't know, most than five things in a row, he insisted that I'm a bipolar guy. Okay, I obviously wasn't willing to debate about this with him cause he's the autority, right? So after changing meds for almost four times, since January/19 I've settled with:
- Pristiq, 50mg, 1 per day
- Depakene, 500mg, 3 per day
- Valium, 10mg, 1 per day
And the outcome is: since Pristiq is freaking expensive I could only afford buying the first box, Depakene was making me depressed so I stopped taking it and the only thing that is actually helping me is the Valium.
Some of you may remember me, I've started taking Ritalin (Insufflated) with some strictly rules, since I'm prone to abusing any substance (alcohol, benzos, soda, porn... basically anything) so I've made three rules for myself:
1 - Never use Ritalin to suppress any bad feeling, only recreational and to help studying.
2 - Have a journal and write down the time of each intake and never go further than 70mg or 100mg a day (100mg if the first intake is in the morning and 70mg if the first intake is after 12 noon) and with strict time between the dosages. Example: 30mg at 9am > 40mg at 1pm > 30mg at 8pm. Always with 10mg of Valium after 2 hours of the intake, so if I insufflated 30mg at 9am, I'm taking 10mg of Valium at 11am to help with the comedown. This has been pretty useful for me, actually.
3 - Drink a lot of water, eat even if I'm not hungry, try to sleep well every night and take some weeks off after a week using it, not only to prevent my body to get used to but also to help staying out of any trouble.
So, here we are. March 24 and after almost two months without the Pristiq, I fell on a HUGE and CRUSHING depressive crisis. Since I don't have much money, I'm used to not having my medicine for some days and a maximum of one week. And I'm almost two months without it. I've experienced the first signals of my depression coming back in the same time I was on my week off Ritalin, so I started overthinking that I was in some kind of withdrawal and that I had f*cked up my life and now I'm a addict and blah, blah, blah. But then something clicked on my mind and I recalled that I WASN'T TAKING MY PRISTIQ. Holy CHRIST! It's obviously that I'm falling in this depressive spiral because I have never been without any antidepressants for most than a week. And since the beginning of this month, I'm trying to reach my psychiatrist to make an appointment and talk about changing Pristiq to another medicine that the public health system distributes for free so I don't have to depend on anybody to buy it.
My relationship have been hugely affected by my actual state and probably I'll be single in a couple of days, I don't know anymore how to shower, I sleep almost the whole day and I've disappeared from internet and this situation brought me here because I need some help. Although I have these rules, I'm desperate. So I'm using Ritalin to help me get through the days, being at least productive and not only a dark sleepy ghost. Acting this way makes me feel even worse, cause I'm breaking the rules and using to suppress my depression but this is the only thing that helps me not thinking about suicide, self-injury and other f*cked up stuffs. My question is if there is any possibility of some misdiagnose? Since Ritalin erases my anxiety, helps me focusing (something that I've always complained since kid) and adding the fact that since that Prozac-induced hypomanic state (occurred in April/18) I didn't had anything like even without taking the Depakene. What if I actually have ADHD? How do I approach my doctor with that? I know that the way I'm using it isn't therapeutic but Ritalin helped me a lot while I was using it with Pristiq and now that I'm using it as a mechanism to stay alive until next monday, it is pretty effective too.
Which medicine can be a good alternative to Pristiq? If I'm not being an *sshole, can I ask a list of these medications so I can search on the list of medicines provided by the government.
Thank y'all so much, really. This forum helped me so many times for years, even when I didn't had an account. Just lurking here brought me some knowledge that allowed me helping friends in time of need.
So, I've been on and off unprescribed Ritalin, with at least one to two weeks without then a week using, mostly because the past two months I didn't had any money to buy my prescribed antidepressant (here in Brasil Pristiq is very expensive) and Ritalin is cheaper so I've decided to use it as some sort of crutch until I go back to my psychiatrist and talk to him about prescribing some alternative to Pristiq, which will happen the next Monday 25.
Yeah, I know that I shouldn't be using Ritalin as an alternative to Pristiq, but I've been in a f*cking hell on earth, let me try to explain.
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 after I got a hypomania crisis while I was on Prozac treatment. I went back to my psychiatric and talked to him, explained that since as a kid I experienced long depressed times but also highly energetic ones, which he told that those ups and downs were my Bipolar talking. Although I've told him that I've always been that typical energetic person that couldn't focus on only ONE THING but instead I was always constantly changing my focus to, I don't know, most than five things in a row, he insisted that I'm a bipolar guy. Okay, I obviously wasn't willing to debate about this with him cause he's the autority, right? So after changing meds for almost four times, since January/19 I've settled with:
- Pristiq, 50mg, 1 per day
- Depakene, 500mg, 3 per day
- Valium, 10mg, 1 per day
And the outcome is: since Pristiq is freaking expensive I could only afford buying the first box, Depakene was making me depressed so I stopped taking it and the only thing that is actually helping me is the Valium.
Some of you may remember me, I've started taking Ritalin (Insufflated) with some strictly rules, since I'm prone to abusing any substance (alcohol, benzos, soda, porn... basically anything) so I've made three rules for myself:
1 - Never use Ritalin to suppress any bad feeling, only recreational and to help studying.
2 - Have a journal and write down the time of each intake and never go further than 70mg or 100mg a day (100mg if the first intake is in the morning and 70mg if the first intake is after 12 noon) and with strict time between the dosages. Example: 30mg at 9am > 40mg at 1pm > 30mg at 8pm. Always with 10mg of Valium after 2 hours of the intake, so if I insufflated 30mg at 9am, I'm taking 10mg of Valium at 11am to help with the comedown. This has been pretty useful for me, actually.
3 - Drink a lot of water, eat even if I'm not hungry, try to sleep well every night and take some weeks off after a week using it, not only to prevent my body to get used to but also to help staying out of any trouble.
So, here we are. March 24 and after almost two months without the Pristiq, I fell on a HUGE and CRUSHING depressive crisis. Since I don't have much money, I'm used to not having my medicine for some days and a maximum of one week. And I'm almost two months without it. I've experienced the first signals of my depression coming back in the same time I was on my week off Ritalin, so I started overthinking that I was in some kind of withdrawal and that I had f*cked up my life and now I'm a addict and blah, blah, blah. But then something clicked on my mind and I recalled that I WASN'T TAKING MY PRISTIQ. Holy CHRIST! It's obviously that I'm falling in this depressive spiral because I have never been without any antidepressants for most than a week. And since the beginning of this month, I'm trying to reach my psychiatrist to make an appointment and talk about changing Pristiq to another medicine that the public health system distributes for free so I don't have to depend on anybody to buy it.
My relationship have been hugely affected by my actual state and probably I'll be single in a couple of days, I don't know anymore how to shower, I sleep almost the whole day and I've disappeared from internet and this situation brought me here because I need some help. Although I have these rules, I'm desperate. So I'm using Ritalin to help me get through the days, being at least productive and not only a dark sleepy ghost. Acting this way makes me feel even worse, cause I'm breaking the rules and using to suppress my depression but this is the only thing that helps me not thinking about suicide, self-injury and other f*cked up stuffs. My question is if there is any possibility of some misdiagnose? Since Ritalin erases my anxiety, helps me focusing (something that I've always complained since kid) and adding the fact that since that Prozac-induced hypomanic state (occurred in April/18) I didn't had anything like even without taking the Depakene. What if I actually have ADHD? How do I approach my doctor with that? I know that the way I'm using it isn't therapeutic but Ritalin helped me a lot while I was using it with Pristiq and now that I'm using it as a mechanism to stay alive until next monday, it is pretty effective too.
Which medicine can be a good alternative to Pristiq? If I'm not being an *sshole, can I ask a list of these medications so I can search on the list of medicines provided by the government.
Thank y'all so much, really. This forum helped me so many times for years, even when I didn't had an account. Just lurking here brought me some knowledge that allowed me helping friends in time of need.