Sunsoda-
Yes. Recovery is a process. Just a little a time, in manageable sections.
You're 10-11 days in right? I read your other thread.
You're going to start to feel better - energy wise, appetite, etc. The Neurontin (gabapentin) is helpful for anxiety as well. It's a soothing medication.
I have chronic pain too Sun. Chronic cluster headaches. That's how my drug abuse journey started. It shows alot of strength to stop. You're doing a great thing by catching yourself. It's not worth it.
I went to a pain rehab about 4yrs ago. It was awesome. It was great to be around others that understood chronic pain. We, like you, needed our meds, but abused them.
I'm on Subutex now. I also take Neurontin (gabapentin) and Lyrica for pain. I was initially put on Neurontin for nerve pain, which it didn't help me with. But, it helps alot with anxiety and panic attacks. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, a few years ago.
You started abusing your meds for energy? I also liked how ambitious they made me. Do you know why your energy is low? I'm asking because I self-medicated because of anxiety and panic attacks.
Hows your day going?