KrakenWolf187
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Oct 24, 2018
- Messages
- 12
Been a voyeur on the site for quite some time, thought it was time I got a little more involved so just wanted to introduce myself. I'm approaching my 32nd birthday shortly, American male, and I have been exploring the nature of my reality with the help of mind altering substances for all of my developmental and adult existence. I am currently a recovering alcoholic and life long addict looking to contribute my experience and (dare I say) potential wisdom of the ups and downs of life and how it relates to the way we see the world and understand our relationship with drugs. I am intensely curious and consistently seeking out new ways of understanding myself and the world and I have gotten so much benefit from the use of this site that I can honestly say without it and a few other resources I would likely not have made it this far in life blessed as I am with the opportunity to ramble semi-coherently anonymously to strangers who in a sense are the family I never knew, trying to save a kindred soul from the depths of the hells they've endured at their own hands and attempting to create an environment of safety and certainty out of inherently dangerous and historically stigmatized but intrinsically and undeniably human behavior of intentional self intoxication and the roles it has played in the evolution of modern man, and that is an admirable and honorable undertaking that I wish to propagate and investigate thoroughly. I feel lucky to have experienced the misfortunes that I have, or at least in the way that I have, because I have used them to grow (for the most part), but I have felt the crushing weight of the hammer of the american judicial system since before I was old enough to drive and that coupled with the propaganda and hypocrisy of the war on drugs has created a need in me to understand as much as possible and if possible help others to find understanding themselves before they end up in one of those life derailing situations that forever alter the universe as you know it. Also, if anyone needs help developing a talent for excessive run on sentences with bare bones punctuation and thesaurus -esque verbiage I think I'm figuring it out. Tried and liked most shit I've come across, been on top of the world and the bottom of the rock as they say, been to prison a couple times been to rehab a couple times been to church a couple times been to the strip club far too infrequently, was raised by an alcoholic and lost my only brother to heroin overdose. Currently only using weed daily but have started to develop a kratom habit and basically hoping to further develop the skills needed to successfully navigate the lifestyle that I've come to know. Sorry for the novel, I like to hear myself talk even via text. Thanks!