I just mean that if life was so beautiful when you believed in one thing, but life no longer seems beautiful when your belief changes, it's important to note that it wasn't the world that changed only your perception of it.
Do you notice how fast you cycle through emotion, Sonic? I don't say that to shame you, I understand you might be going through a lot, just that it makes it very hard to communicate with you. One minute, you are overwhelmed with religious fervor, the next you are spiraling down hopelessly, the next you are back to believing in god. Compare your posts 3-4 posts ago to your original thread, and to your last post.
We are here to offer emotional support for each other during these dark and confusing times. But we aren't here to offer religious support or reinforce any religious belief or view. If you are looking for things to reinforce your belief in god- well that is what churches are for. I'd suggest you go find one if that is what you want. You'll get a lot of atheist viewpoints here online because for a lot of us this is our church of godlessness. A place that we can support and connect with each other without the burdens of theology or belief in god getting in the way.
Really, this is mostly a place for other drug users to support other drug users, as it's a drug forum at the core. We don't discriminate against any belief as long as you or a loved one has drug related problems.
The problem isn't that you believe in god, sonic. The problem is that you want to talk about god more than you do anything else. You make brief mention of yourself and your story only to allude to god. If god is the answer to all problems and it's all that you need then we have nothing to offer you, you'll inevitably end up preaching the answer of god to everyone else who attempts to help.
I want you to have a place to work through your crisis, but you'll have to leave the god talk behind if you want to do it here. I'd love to hear your story if you actually talk about yourself rather than your religion. I think people would listen if you were to talk about specific times of your 7 year stint, or how you over came specific drug addictions and withdrawal. Or how the medications you take make you feel funny. Or how you feel like shit when you wake up every morning. Really whatever, so long as you are talking about you as a person, and not you as a belief. If you want people to relate to you as a person, you have to give them the story of yourself. People can relate to feelings but only agree or disagree with beliefs.
I'm closing this, and will discuss with aihfl about possible infraction. I don't know how we can make it any more clear.