A few months ago I thought long and hard about my present place in life, where I'm headed and how long I have left in my career, and decided to run a very simple experiment. It consists of allocating a minimum of 4h daily Mon-Fri and 8h each on Sat and Sun to developing a software product I've devised. Trouble is I have a very intellectually demanding job, also in the software development field, that requires consistent, dedicated, focus, and is my primary focus. On the plus side, I work from home on a freelancing basis which gives me the flexibility to schedule the work week as I please, and my employer cares only about met objectives at the end of the week.
I started off my experiment sometime last summer with great results. I quickly got lots done and had a prototype working in no time. Was also more or less sticking to the 4h/8h schedule, which I found surprising. However, although I was putting in the hours, it quickly became emotionally painful to do so in addition to working an intense full time job, but I somehow soldiered on. Eventually I began faltering and not putting in the hours once or twice a week, which worsened with time. A few months in, it got to the point where my experiment effectively stalled because I lacked the motivation to work on it.
If anything, I just want to finish the thing. I have tried a couple of supplements that I have found provided a boost to motivation, however either a tolerance developed quickly, I stopped feeling the effects, or there were nasty sides involved. An example of this is Modafinil. When only the positive effects on focus, motivation and productivity are considered, this is an amazing drug! Sadly it also gives me crippling anxiety, and find that the effect only lasts about 6 to 8h (which is problematic as I have to take it first thing in the morning as to not affect sleep); also could only take it a max of 3 times a week to counter tolerance build-up. The boost to motivation was amazing but the negative sides forced me to discontinue use. I widened my search and considered amphetamines like Adderal and others, but the potential for neurotoxic effects and addiction worry me. Also can't be doing with potential mania/psychotic episodes. Whatever I settle on must be gentle acting as to be almost imperceptible with barely any sides to contend with.
This leads me to a drug that caught my attention: seligiline, also known as L-deprenyl. Does anyone have first hand experience with this drug? Due to the way it works as an irreversible MAO-B inhibitor, is it possible to do a 1 or 2 month course and still experience positive side effects for awhile after? If so, how long does this last for after end of treatment and is it possible to cycle it? Assuming a dosage at or under recommended therapeutic dosages, are there any negative side effects?
I started off my experiment sometime last summer with great results. I quickly got lots done and had a prototype working in no time. Was also more or less sticking to the 4h/8h schedule, which I found surprising. However, although I was putting in the hours, it quickly became emotionally painful to do so in addition to working an intense full time job, but I somehow soldiered on. Eventually I began faltering and not putting in the hours once or twice a week, which worsened with time. A few months in, it got to the point where my experiment effectively stalled because I lacked the motivation to work on it.
If anything, I just want to finish the thing. I have tried a couple of supplements that I have found provided a boost to motivation, however either a tolerance developed quickly, I stopped feeling the effects, or there were nasty sides involved. An example of this is Modafinil. When only the positive effects on focus, motivation and productivity are considered, this is an amazing drug! Sadly it also gives me crippling anxiety, and find that the effect only lasts about 6 to 8h (which is problematic as I have to take it first thing in the morning as to not affect sleep); also could only take it a max of 3 times a week to counter tolerance build-up. The boost to motivation was amazing but the negative sides forced me to discontinue use. I widened my search and considered amphetamines like Adderal and others, but the potential for neurotoxic effects and addiction worry me. Also can't be doing with potential mania/psychotic episodes. Whatever I settle on must be gentle acting as to be almost imperceptible with barely any sides to contend with.
This leads me to a drug that caught my attention: seligiline, also known as L-deprenyl. Does anyone have first hand experience with this drug? Due to the way it works as an irreversible MAO-B inhibitor, is it possible to do a 1 or 2 month course and still experience positive side effects for awhile after? If so, how long does this last for after end of treatment and is it possible to cycle it? Assuming a dosage at or under recommended therapeutic dosages, are there any negative side effects?