I just realized I don't want a fucking implant . I want my dick back!!!! Fuck man fuck. I don't want to kill my self but I am just 18 and don't think I will ever be able to fuck a woman without an implant . And we'll an implant it's not perfect. Has a lot of possible problems.
sometimes I start crying then I look at my window and I think about jumping.
1 month ago I was literally trying to kill my self with a knife, but it was impossible. ut whatever. My life will move on, I will still be living at my room.
im looking forward for trying the injection for the erection. I hope it leads to my expectations which is my good old Bonner. If it doesn't I probally will have a breakdown .
sorry for writing all this I just want to register how I am feeling to see in the future if anything changed.
Mod edit: we really want to help, but we can't help people through suicidal territory. And we can't allow suicidal material to be posted, as we simply can't harbor any of that sentiment. There is a better path to all whom are committed to recovery through their daily actions. Build upon goals daily, and realize them in time. Things get better if you hold your goals in mind when you're down. We also need others, people whom we know in real life, to confide in. Therapy is also very important. You'll get there. It's just that a lot of the work has to be done by yourself. We do what we can for ya on bluelight, but we only go so far in helping.
sometimes I start crying then I look at my window and I think about jumping.
1 month ago I was literally trying to kill my self with a knife, but it was impossible. ut whatever. My life will move on, I will still be living at my room.
im looking forward for trying the injection for the erection. I hope it leads to my expectations which is my good old Bonner. If it doesn't I probally will have a breakdown .
sorry for writing all this I just want to register how I am feeling to see in the future if anything changed.
Mod edit: we really want to help, but we can't help people through suicidal territory. And we can't allow suicidal material to be posted, as we simply can't harbor any of that sentiment. There is a better path to all whom are committed to recovery through their daily actions. Build upon goals daily, and realize them in time. Things get better if you hold your goals in mind when you're down. We also need others, people whom we know in real life, to confide in. Therapy is also very important. You'll get there. It's just that a lot of the work has to be done by yourself. We do what we can for ya on bluelight, but we only go so far in helping.
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