I'm certain that he left me to suffer because he had a problem with my addiction. I should have made a formal complaint however he made me feel so crap about myself that I felt like I somehow deserved to be treated like shit.
This likely is correct. In the past 3 years, I've been hospitalized for close to 365 days, I've had 3 heart surgeries and a pacemaker put in, 18 weeks worth of IV antibiotics, and numerous other things due to infected abscesses from IV, blood infection, sepsis and endocarditis, also I lost my lower lobe in my right lung due to pulmonary emboli.
So, here's the thing: medical professionals are human beings. Some of them can't control their bias toward addiction. Going forward, the absolute best way to handle this, is just request a new doctor. Typically the nurse will be your best bet on how to achieve this, but if your nurse is biased about drugs (and you bet, there are some), then request someone in administration. I promise you, handle it civilly, intelligently and rationally, and you'll never be subjected to that again. Doctors and other medical professionals get away with it because they assume addicts won't know any better and will take it, prove their bias wrong. Trust me, it feels much better to win playing by the rules
This goes for outpatient care as well, I had to go through over 7 different pain management doctors, 5 different cardiologists and 3 different general practice doctors to find a doctor who understands addictions, has my best interest at heart and can then develop a great doctor/patient relationship with.
The only time this will backfire is with surgeons, those son's of bitches know they can't be replaced, and you (and the rest of humanity) will have to put up with their sometimes terrible bedside manner. But, one great thing, is if they take you on, you can be assured their own selfish ego will prevent them from harming you - they want their stats to have no complications.
Although I swear my third heart surgeon (who wasn't afraid to tell everyone he disliked me and didn't want to put in a new tricuspid valve - yes, he wanted to condemn me to a life with no tricuspid valve in my heart, the Chief of Cardiothoracic Surgery had to overrule him - purposefully cut my SA Node and forced me to have Total Heart Block and be reliant on a pacemaker for the rest of my life, he retired 37 days after my surgery so obviously didn't care about his stats)
Every day that disgusting prick of a human being would come in, in the ICU and start screaming at the nurses about why they would allow a junkie to be on a morphine pump. I hope he dies a slow, painful, miserable death.
I guess the moral of the story is to not use a surgeon who is going to retire any time soon.