Pillsbury_Dope_Boy
Bluelighter
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Maybe this is a perfect time to get involved in a local church and join some bible studies since you mention your new faith.
I would actually like to start going to church. The thing is, churches (at least in my understanding) tend to be organizations centered around the community. If I were to just walk into a church by myself without knowing anyone, and with all sorts of personal problems (drug use, not having a career, etc.), while also not being the most social person, I feel like I would be rejected and run out of the church pretty quickly.
One time, I had some minor legal problems and I was ordered by a judge to complete a certain number of hours of community service. Someone told me I could do this at a church. I was living in a town where I didn't know anyone and didn't have any family. I went to a local protestant church, and as soon as I walked in the front door, the person at the desk looks at me like I am from Mars. I explain that I wanted to volunteer for the church in order to complete my community service, and their response was basically "We've never seen you before. We don't know who the fuck you are. Get the fuck out."
I would like it if my wife were to come with me to church (she is more social than I am), but the few times I have brought it up to her, she was not too enthusiastic about it. The reasons for this are that although she is very conservative, she is not really into the whole religious thing. Also, the times we talked about going to church, it was within the context of helping me recover from addiction, and she is not too keen on playing an active role in my recovery. She is willing to hold my hand and be supportive, but she sees addiction as a problem of MINE that has to be dealt with primarily by ME. So if I bring up the possibility that she come to church (or group therapy, or whatever) with me, she is going to be reluctant.
10YearsGone:
I have tried both Suboxone and methadone in the past. I would just use the sub/meth when I was broke and then go use dope as soon as I had money. When I was on methadone and had a little money saved up, I would take my methadone in the morning and then go use dope in the afternoon every day.
Additionally, both Suboxone and methadone would make me extremely tired and unmotivated during the day. I would sleep till 4 or 5 PM and I would be too tired to go to the gym or look for a real job. I currently take kratom, which is just as good as suboxone (if not better) when it comes to dealing with withdrawal, but it doesn't make me tired and unmotivated the way Suboxone used to.
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