Debbie Combs
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 10, 2018
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- 158
Day 44
Physical symptoms seem to be gone although RSL, sneezing come out of nowhere. Minor in comparison.
Mentally Im a mess.
Never got out of bed yesterday. Layed and looked at ceiling fan hours upon hours. Total silence in house, absolutely no motivation. Felt so heavy. I cried a lot. Social isolation is not good. Life has more meaning with people, but I can not summon energy, nor do I want to bring people down with my attitude. Physical exercise has always helped but again, I have no will power.
I have read that this is part of it all. The brain is trying to balance chemistry, dopemine. Trying hard to remember this is temporary, but damn if you are living it, seems incredibly hard.
Physical symptoms seem to be gone although RSL, sneezing come out of nowhere. Minor in comparison.
Mentally Im a mess.
Never got out of bed yesterday. Layed and looked at ceiling fan hours upon hours. Total silence in house, absolutely no motivation. Felt so heavy. I cried a lot. Social isolation is not good. Life has more meaning with people, but I can not summon energy, nor do I want to bring people down with my attitude. Physical exercise has always helped but again, I have no will power.
I have read that this is part of it all. The brain is trying to balance chemistry, dopemine. Trying hard to remember this is temporary, but damn if you are living it, seems incredibly hard.