• H&R Moderators: VerbalTruist | cdin | Lil'LinaptkSix

Detox Finally stopped the methadone clinic

If your in the US the emergency room is going to be a crapshoot. My situation when I was going through this went like this. I was in rehab the drugs they where giving weren't helping at all and it got unbearable. Indescribably bad. I told them I was going to kill myself so they called an ambulance. I got lucky that they knocked me out with Versed in the ER probably because I was making such a scene. Then I woke up in the phych ward and they started me on Suboxone. I've been on that since. It was for the best for me personally but every situation is different.

I hope you have an easier time from here on in. Keep us updated.
 
Versed, like the drug before surgery? Will that had to of helped, Lord you had to do all that before they would give you what you needed? Crapshoot indeed.
Im skeptical of looking into another addiction Dr, it’s how I got on Methadone. Dr there was ridiculous, I’m sure there are clinics out there that may help, but this one was a joke. I could go on and on but ..........

last two nights, in the evening, I don’t feel that bad. I’m achy, legs hurt but not unbearable. I dosed in A.M. for years. By 5pm I was dragging anyways. This feels similar except for the runny nose, sore throat accompanying. But wow when the midnight hour strikes. Between 2-5am...............I hope above all hope that the bad days you describe are not like those hours constantly with no end for days. Cause if it is, like you, I think I’d be wanting an end somehow someway.
 
I know this may be too much information, but sex is soooooooooooooooooooooomuch better now. The hell with methadone!!
Maybe a short term victory, but I’ll take what I can.
 
Hi Debbie- I just came off of 35 mg of methadone and my reason was also because they took away my take homes because I had a slip. But they took away 13 bottles and it was my first slip and it?s really difficult to go daily and get to work. I changed over to subutex with an addiction specialist (outpatient) supervising me. I had to wait 4 days to take the sub to avoid precipitated withdrawal and that was torture for me. I needed Ativan to get through it and now I?m tapering right down to zero mg of sub over 6 days and that?s also really hard, requiring Ativan for sleep and anxiety. I would be taking the smallest amount of Xanax I could to provide some relief and try making it last as long as possible. Can you try to research subutex/suboxone providers in your area? I was able to get an appointment next day and the doctor is really helping me.
 
Hey Minnie, if it was a couple years ago or even 6mo ago I’d would be looking for a sub provider in the morning. Now, I’m just hell bent on being off.
Those clinics are a joke. I had 20 take homes they took in May because of a bottle check call. The number was out of area I did not recognize it. Thought it was someone selling something. Took awhile to get them back. 3 or 4 months. Took a class and painted a rock. That was my requirement. The counselor kept forgetting to put in the paperwork. The 6 yrs, 4 mo I was there I saw a dr once and that was at the beginning. I briefly saw him in hallway and asked a question one other time. Saw a counselor once in seven months.whole time there I only had one class and that was the rock thing. They do not help much. This last time they decided to take them away I didn’t argue, I just walked.
im not doing anymore opiates. Nope. Even after last night with the uncontrollable jerking in legs and back I did not touch the one loritab I have in this house.
I hope you succeed in your taper. Sounds like you are going fast. Do you have many withdrawls? RSL? Good luck to you
 
Day 6
comfort med......trazadone, xanax, Imodium, Advil, Tylenol, clonidine. Took all except the clonidine. Was apprehensive. Went to bed woke 45 mins later to RSL bad RSL involuntary jerks in legs. So groggy from trazadone and Xanax, was hard to move around to get relief. Took to .1 clonidine. Fell back to sleep couple hrs later and slept heavy for 8 hrs. No ache, no cold to bone feeling. Just a headache with no motivation to do anything. Lethargic is a mild word for the tiredness. Imodium is much needed.
looking forward to day 7, getting next week behind me. I know that at ANY Withdrawal symptom can come back. Within minutes. Glad I’m home and not trying to work this week. Was fortunate to have a week I could take off. Next week I have to go back.
Thank you for reading this. Any comments or advice is welcomed. Special thank you to “CJ” for giving me a list of comfort meds to take to Dr.
 
It's a great sleep in that your able to sleep. Insomnia turns up the volume on all the symptoms. The Clonidine will be very helpful no need to be apprehensive.
 
Clonidine........is for high blood pressure. You mentioned I could take more. Doesn’t raise concern about heart? I took 2 in exasperation last night to help with my legs. How much is too much?
Why is it so much worse at night! It’s not like I’m really doing much through the day. That has me kinda befuddled. Also why the waves of withdrawls. Is it just leeching out of system like that?
 
I am very very thankful for sleep last night. I had stopped benzo in ‘17. I had no sleep for months. Didn’t touch them for a good year. I had started getting 4-5 hrs and bam, starting taking low low doses of Xanax again. Now I’m trying to only take .25......but I know, my body wants them again. I will have to go off those soon. I only have a few left.
I was naive, when the Dr prescribed them, I had no idea they were addictive. Even when he said no more, I thought doesn’t matter. I take 1 at bedtime. I had no idea how it was effecting me. At the time I had changed my schedule from a 2 shift to a 1 shift. I had to wake at 5am. I couldn’t sleep because wasn’t use to the schedule. All the sudden I hated my husband. He had to leave. My daughter moved out as well. Next thing I know I’m in a big o house alone, no sleep, angry at the world. Did not even cross my mind that it was a withdrawal from Xanax. I took them for over 20 yrs. my aunt told me I might consider going back on them. You NEED them girl. Lol. Well, I can’t get them now. I have some left over from old script I’ve taken sporadically. I do not look forward to that.
i know this has nothing to do with methadone withdrawal but I’m anxious over it. Achy in bones now. No congestion sneezing like I’ve read others had. Just the RSL, bones, muscles and of course all over flu feeling. The restless, tiredness of it all is horrible too. I feel for anyone going through something like this.
 
It's your thread anything you want to discuss is totally fine.

Benzo withdrawal is really gnarly. I didn't know you had past issues with them or I wouldn't have suggested taking them. Sorry. I kicked an rc benzo habit had a siezure and wound up in the hospital.
 
I think benzo harder mentally, aside from headache, insomnia. Methadone is kicking my ass right now. Stomach is bad. Hurts in the bones. Yeah.........all I can remember of Xanax withdrawal was I was a real BITCH!
 
I had to abruptly stop 3 mg clonazepam and 120 mg of Methadone at 57. You'll get thru it. See if you can get some comfort meds. Benzo seem to work so well for about 3 days then they don't really even help me sleep.
 
Last edited:
Methadone is worse physically benzo is worse mentally. That was my experience anyway.
 
Thanx FLA, glad you told me at 57 you jump off and did ok. I’ll say that that was an insane amount to come off. I’m sure it was hell, I do not mean that lightly.
Its been 157 hrs since my last dose.
The withdrawls do not stay, they comes in waves. Still very tired. Stomach tender, Lope took care of the yucks but now I can’t seem to go, but no achy bones, no RSL, that will come tonight about an hour after I lay down. Very hard to explain THAT feeling. Hoping in the morning I will find I slept most of night without that pain. It seems harder if it comes on sudden. Maybe it doesn’t. Maybe I’m asleep through the tingling of it, before it grows.
I do think I’m getting better. I feel better. I CAN get comfortable, which 3 days ago I could not.
Tomorrow I need to venture out of the house. I need groceries. I’m sure the masses will be out too, we are expecting a snowstorm. God, it would be horrible to go through withdrawls with no heat.
I hope for the best, expect the worst.
 
Feeling somewhat better, typical flu like symptoms. Achy, stuffy head. The comfort meds really helped. If anyone reads this I think they are a must. The Lope, well........it’s not for me. I did take 4 one night when it was bad, and 1 yesterday. Now I have the reverse going on, no movement but cramps in belly. Eating is still not appealing. Stomach really bloated and cramping. No energy, but got things I need to do today.
Trazadone, that’s a different type of medicine. It’s as close to anesthesia as you can get I believe. There has got to be middle ground. I’m a walking zombie on it. I do sleep, broken but I can drift back after an hour or so. I need to count blessings on that one though. I’ve read so many can’t sleep, making it hell. But.........if I’m gonna walk around like a zombie, I could’ve stayed on methadone.
 
I hope your wd sx subside soon Deb.

But......congrats on a week!!!! You ROCK Debbie Combs!!!!


Much love, your friend,
Ash!!!
 
Had things I should’ve done. Absolutely no energy. This house, how do people stay in a house all the time? God, I wish I felt better. I’m not feeling the thrill of sobriety, nope, not at all. 7 days. Only 7 days, feels like weeks. I’d go outside if it was 25 degrees f. With the wind blowing 30mph. Note to self...........if ever in withdrawls wait for summer.
I felt better yesterday. Again the wax and wane of withdrawls is absolutely maddening. Every single bone in my body aches. Every muscle.
Is the trazadone making me feel so lethargic, clonidine? Cause movement eases the pain and as limp as I feel that’s not going to happen.
I have 2 jobs. I’ve never sat in one place this long. I’m going batshit. Lol
 
Ash, I’m so sorry. Thank you for the card. It did make me smile. Someone cares!
i will say logging this process does help. Helps to get feelings out there and whine. Cause most of mine has been one long whine.
Feel lots of guilt. My life, I had so many hopes. I’ve stayed so messed up, looking for peace just to find out that peace comes from within. I’ve looked down bottles for peace, taken pills and more pills just to find it. It’s not there. That ride always comes to an end. Then it’s just empty and you are left with all these guilty “should have” feelings. Gosh if you are young and reading this, don’t waste your life looking for fun like that. It’s fun but not genuine. Peace will never find you if you are fucked up.
 
The Clonidine could make you feel lethargic. It lowers your blood pressure and adrenaline levels. It's supposed to help take away the uncomfortable energy of withdrawal
 
Top