JoeTheFractal
Greenlighter
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- Oct 24, 2010
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Hi,
I started taking speed when I was 13 and I've been doing it roughly every other day ever since. I'm now 30 and I think that I should probably try to quit. I've done most other things, mainly just acid/mdma/ket at weekends/wednesdays. But I don't think I've done anything but stimulants (and sedatives to sleep) in the last year or so.
I've always had a bit of a stammer that comes and goes since I was very young. Being tired makes it worse and speed makes it better. (But possibly makes it worse in the long run?) Its not that bad at the moment.
I've done pretty well but I've got quite a high pressure job. (I'm one of the senior software developers at a retailer you have probably heard of.) I've managed to do all of this on stimulants (so it's a bit scary to not have them) and my job often involves talking to lots of people and doing presentations etc.
I tried to quit recently but I had no motivation to do anything, at all. Even things around the house. So after a few weeks I ended up getting some modafinil which kind of worked for a while but made me moody, headachy and have weird mdma style brain zaps. So now im back on speed.
I'd like to know roughly how long it takes to become motivated without stimulants? Is there anything that I can do to help?
I'd also like to know if other functional stims like modafinil are significantly better for you than speed? I've got a history of stroke in my family and I'm worried about my health.
Thanks,
Joe
I started taking speed when I was 13 and I've been doing it roughly every other day ever since. I'm now 30 and I think that I should probably try to quit. I've done most other things, mainly just acid/mdma/ket at weekends/wednesdays. But I don't think I've done anything but stimulants (and sedatives to sleep) in the last year or so.
I've always had a bit of a stammer that comes and goes since I was very young. Being tired makes it worse and speed makes it better. (But possibly makes it worse in the long run?) Its not that bad at the moment.
I've done pretty well but I've got quite a high pressure job. (I'm one of the senior software developers at a retailer you have probably heard of.) I've managed to do all of this on stimulants (so it's a bit scary to not have them) and my job often involves talking to lots of people and doing presentations etc.
I tried to quit recently but I had no motivation to do anything, at all. Even things around the house. So after a few weeks I ended up getting some modafinil which kind of worked for a while but made me moody, headachy and have weird mdma style brain zaps. So now im back on speed.
I'd like to know roughly how long it takes to become motivated without stimulants? Is there anything that I can do to help?
I'd also like to know if other functional stims like modafinil are significantly better for you than speed? I've got a history of stroke in my family and I'm worried about my health.
Thanks,
Joe