Hey yall! Yes I'm from the south! And yes I'm a typical crazy cat lady! I am currently coming off of kratom. And from what I have learned here is a pretty hefty dosage. But of course kratom is not the beginning....
In 2005 I was diagnosed with early onset osteoporosis. There was no scoliosis yet at this time. I was only 43. Of course I was plugged with enough narcotics to kill a horse! I loved them! Just not sure why... did they kill the pain or did they take away the horror I felt at this being the rest of my life?
Obviously it didn't make much difference because soon after I met a guy and was introduced to meth. I fell hard and fast! Fastforward 2 yrs.... after having lost everything and 45 days in county I moved. Clean slate and cleaned up.
All was well for 10 years. I had moved back home after 3 yrs. Got a good job and I was making it! I ate a lot of otc pain meds but I was ok.
In 2014 I returned to dr. Osteo had worsened and marked scoliosis had begun. He prescribed Trammodol only because I told him I wasn't ready for the big guns. I was still scared of a meth relapse also at the time. After several months of refilling this prescription I started feeling the talk of a small town. I stopped getting it filled.
2015 I found kratom. Was like a dream! It was legal, it killed the pain, hell, even got a buzz! It was supposedly considered non addictive, I could still work..... I had it made!
Not! The scoliosis has gone from lower back to the humback, also my neck. I am a full 2 inches shorter than i used to be. Kratom kept me working 3 more years for which I was grateful! I am no longer working, and I am awaiting SSI.
Of course I can't afford kratom right now while waiting therefore the w/d and that damn RLS! I still have Trammodol that I think I have decided to use. At 56 years I am wondering if there comes a time in life when you just have to let go. When do you stop being an addict and become legit? I mean, damn, what am I really fighting for? As my new friend Ash said "am I really doing my self a favor here?"
In 2005 I was diagnosed with early onset osteoporosis. There was no scoliosis yet at this time. I was only 43. Of course I was plugged with enough narcotics to kill a horse! I loved them! Just not sure why... did they kill the pain or did they take away the horror I felt at this being the rest of my life?
Obviously it didn't make much difference because soon after I met a guy and was introduced to meth. I fell hard and fast! Fastforward 2 yrs.... after having lost everything and 45 days in county I moved. Clean slate and cleaned up.
All was well for 10 years. I had moved back home after 3 yrs. Got a good job and I was making it! I ate a lot of otc pain meds but I was ok.
In 2014 I returned to dr. Osteo had worsened and marked scoliosis had begun. He prescribed Trammodol only because I told him I wasn't ready for the big guns. I was still scared of a meth relapse also at the time. After several months of refilling this prescription I started feeling the talk of a small town. I stopped getting it filled.
2015 I found kratom. Was like a dream! It was legal, it killed the pain, hell, even got a buzz! It was supposedly considered non addictive, I could still work..... I had it made!
Not! The scoliosis has gone from lower back to the humback, also my neck. I am a full 2 inches shorter than i used to be. Kratom kept me working 3 more years for which I was grateful! I am no longer working, and I am awaiting SSI.
Of course I can't afford kratom right now while waiting therefore the w/d and that damn RLS! I still have Trammodol that I think I have decided to use. At 56 years I am wondering if there comes a time in life when you just have to let go. When do you stop being an addict and become legit? I mean, damn, what am I really fighting for? As my new friend Ash said "am I really doing my self a favor here?"