Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
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- Nov 3, 2008
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Whats up everyone?.... Nice to see youre still around 10years. I just got out of a 60 day rehab so I have 60 some odd days clean. I havent even had a cigarette or caffeine. I was able to work out and eat well and Im proud to say my new addiction is the gym. I am shredded..lol... and I have never felt better but unfortunately I found out for sure that I have hep C. Im trying to get on vivatrol but after I got the first shot my liver enzymes went way up. They were still climbing after two more subsequent tests. This is very disturbing to me because they wouldnt give me the 2nd shot. I have to go back for more test to see if I can get it. I got a prescription for Naltrexone but at this point I don't think I even want to mess with it if it is going to affect my liver. I also got the the number and address of a agency that will help me get free treatment to get rid of the hep.
I have to move forward this time and face life without even entertaining drug use as an option. Things got real this time. This last year was crazy and I have never been so sure I will die if I use again. I have gained the support of my whole family and I cant bare the thought of messing up and losing those relationships. This is it... Im done... Whatever it takes. I have really gotten into buddhism and medition. I am going to use every tool availabe because thats how bad I want it. NA, AA, already in IOP, mindfulness sessions, psych evaluations, spiritual retreates, prayer, living life to the fullest.... Anything to beat this thing once and for all.
I did get some good news. My lawyer won the appeal with the DMV and it looks like they might drop the charge all together because of holes in their case. I will never lose my liscence or have to get that expensive insurance. I cant believe my luck. I could have killed someone blacked out on the highway. After that, my crazy night with my roomates trying to set me up in a control buy and planting drugs on me, the crash on the highway at 70mph when I was trying to kill myself and a brush with the Columbian federales this last time in Medellin, I know God has his hand on my life. God, the Universe, destiny, life energy, whatever you call it.... It is guiding me and intricately involved in insuring my well being. Time to stop tempting fate. The writting is on the wall. Next time I don't think I will be so lucky. I have a purpose to fullfill and I can never do that if I am using. Im choosing LIFE!!
Love you guys... Somni
Hep C is curable. Don’t be afraid to get on the meds and get your liver back
Glad to see you’re still here.