Pharmakeia
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 22, 2017
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- 9
Hi. About seven years ago I used salvia about 30+ times and loved it. I broke through on my second try (went into infinite darkness talking to blocks that were a color I'd never seen before that were singing in a different language- all that bizarre salvia stuff lol). I continued to use it and break through a lot that year then stopped for many years. The kind I had back then was 80x.
Last week, I attempted to break through after getting some 30X. The first try, I became a bunch of lines in my vision and thought that I was meant to repeat a motion as part of the line forever, which lasted for a couple minutes, then I started coming back disoriented and was asking my friend questions, but everything he said back to me sounded like he was hitting on me (I'm not gay and he wasn't even saying stuff that sounded gay in retrospect, but at the time I knew he was coming on to me and I was freaked out and paranoid). That lasted for about fifteen minutes, followed by serious uneasiness for about 10 more minutes. I think the problem there was that I had a crappy little pipe that overheated too easily and it made me not be able to inhale as much and hold it in.
The other day, I tried again with a bubbler. I got a full hit while keeping the flame on it at all times, just as I'd remembered, and I became part of that line again, being barked orders at by some cartoonish other parts of the line. Then when I came down a little more, waves were going into my wall on the right and I was being apologized to by somebody on the other side of the wall (who wasn't actually there), then the waves started going forward to the wall in front of me, which made me apologize to the wall in front of me, like it was a chain reaction of apologies lol. This was uncomfortable, because with each wave it felt like I was being smashed down into the ground by some heavy force.
Despite these recent trips being neat, they are more unsettling than before and I'm not fully breaking through. I want to get past the point of becoming a shape, and enter into another universe like I remember from years ago. I remember that once I came back from my full-on breakthroughs in the past that I didn't have negative comedown effects like I've had recently. My friend theorized that it was because I was fighting it with my body because I was still halfway in reality and I needed to break through further. I agree with this now, although at the time I was still paranoid about him coming on to me, so I thought he was telling me not to "fight it" and just give in to his seduction lmao.
Any thoughts on how I can make my new trips more positive and intense like the old ones? Just as a side note- I am holding the flame on the extract at all times and holding the smoke in for over 30 seconds.
Last week, I attempted to break through after getting some 30X. The first try, I became a bunch of lines in my vision and thought that I was meant to repeat a motion as part of the line forever, which lasted for a couple minutes, then I started coming back disoriented and was asking my friend questions, but everything he said back to me sounded like he was hitting on me (I'm not gay and he wasn't even saying stuff that sounded gay in retrospect, but at the time I knew he was coming on to me and I was freaked out and paranoid). That lasted for about fifteen minutes, followed by serious uneasiness for about 10 more minutes. I think the problem there was that I had a crappy little pipe that overheated too easily and it made me not be able to inhale as much and hold it in.
The other day, I tried again with a bubbler. I got a full hit while keeping the flame on it at all times, just as I'd remembered, and I became part of that line again, being barked orders at by some cartoonish other parts of the line. Then when I came down a little more, waves were going into my wall on the right and I was being apologized to by somebody on the other side of the wall (who wasn't actually there), then the waves started going forward to the wall in front of me, which made me apologize to the wall in front of me, like it was a chain reaction of apologies lol. This was uncomfortable, because with each wave it felt like I was being smashed down into the ground by some heavy force.
Despite these recent trips being neat, they are more unsettling than before and I'm not fully breaking through. I want to get past the point of becoming a shape, and enter into another universe like I remember from years ago. I remember that once I came back from my full-on breakthroughs in the past that I didn't have negative comedown effects like I've had recently. My friend theorized that it was because I was fighting it with my body because I was still halfway in reality and I needed to break through further. I agree with this now, although at the time I was still paranoid about him coming on to me, so I thought he was telling me not to "fight it" and just give in to his seduction lmao.
Any thoughts on how I can make my new trips more positive and intense like the old ones? Just as a side note- I am holding the flame on the extract at all times and holding the smoke in for over 30 seconds.