Day 25. Completely ran out of energy yesterday afternoon and the sleep deprivation really caught up with me as I was driving home from work. Concentration was way off and vision seemed almost blurry so I stopped and got a small coffee to clear my head. Made it home OK and was pretty much a slug for the rest of the evening although I did manage to get up and fix a decent dinner for the wife and I. I got so pissed off at the rainy, damp weather that I went out and fired up the grill for the first time this year just to prove a point--not sure what it was since I was cold and wet when I got done. But dammit, I grilled out for the first time this Spring, so there. Anyway, decided it was time for sleep meds so I took a Lunesta about 10pm and went to bed. Managed to get about 5.5 hrs of straight sleep. Even though I can still feel the hangover effect of the Lunesta, the sleep was badly needed and I do feel more rested. Had about 8 oz of weak coffee so starting to feel more focused. Kind of hate using the caffeine, but I've got shit to do today and need to get going.
Body aches related to WD are getting better--seems to have mostly settled in my knees for some reason and they are the one body part that I have not fucked up in some way during my life. Congestion is mostly clear, and sneezes seem to be happening less--down to a more normal 3 or 4 at a time. I do get brief flashes of anxiety when I first wake up from a short sleep for some reason. Seems like if I can get into REM cycle or deep sleep for more than a few hours, I don't notice it as much. But when I wake up after an hour or less I feel really panicked/nervous which takes a while to clear. Aside from the foggy, tired effects of limited sleep, physically/mentally things seem to be getting better at a faster rate. For me, during WD, things feel awful and move in slow motion to a certain point where it's hard to feel any improvement at all most days. Seems like there is a point of critical mass where you actually do start to feel better day-to-day and the good ones start to outnumber the bad.
Sun is out today but the high is only supposed to be in the 40's--suppose that's better than rain/snow...If it somehow manages to stay dry this weekend, I am supposed to go pick-up my ultralight kit/project which is kind of exciting.
Body aches related to WD are getting better--seems to have mostly settled in my knees for some reason and they are the one body part that I have not fucked up in some way during my life. Congestion is mostly clear, and sneezes seem to be happening less--down to a more normal 3 or 4 at a time. I do get brief flashes of anxiety when I first wake up from a short sleep for some reason. Seems like if I can get into REM cycle or deep sleep for more than a few hours, I don't notice it as much. But when I wake up after an hour or less I feel really panicked/nervous which takes a while to clear. Aside from the foggy, tired effects of limited sleep, physically/mentally things seem to be getting better at a faster rate. For me, during WD, things feel awful and move in slow motion to a certain point where it's hard to feel any improvement at all most days. Seems like there is a point of critical mass where you actually do start to feel better day-to-day and the good ones start to outnumber the bad.
Sun is out today but the high is only supposed to be in the 40's--suppose that's better than rain/snow...If it somehow manages to stay dry this weekend, I am supposed to go pick-up my ultralight kit/project which is kind of exciting.
