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81 days off suboxone,Xanax and Adderall... need some relief

Kristi35

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81 days sober and I?m having problems with anxiety, depression and I?m lazy. I have gone to meetings and have a sponsor. I?m just wondering will it really get better???
 
It will get better. This is not permanent. Most people with long-term after-effects from quitting will usually find that by 1 year most of them have subsided. That isn't to say you still have 9 more months before you feel better. Just that most people will have started to feel better at some point within the first year.

You may also consider going to a psychiatrist and discussing some of the issues you are having. That is a hell of a cocktail of drugs, so it may have been repressing some underlying issues that were already there. Now that you have no buffer against them in the drugs, you are facing them alone. Maybe a short-term stint on a mid-powered anti-depressant or a non-benzo anxiety medication could help (there are actually tons of non-benzo anxiety pills; it is a shame doctors resort to benzos so quickly).
 
I stopped klonopin last March and was massively delusional for three months until I fired my docs and got the script from the pharmacy and started my own wean.

I just quit klonopin again and have no withdrawals. It?s kinda funny when I gave my life over to my Lord He took away the pain.

There is a way out of this that is so easy but a lot of ppl are reluctant to accept the challenge of being a Christian.

I would encourage you to maybe think about it. I?m a minister but I don?t have a degree but I know the Lord. He?s just waiting to heal you.
 
I am ready for God to come into my life. I love your advice and would love you to tell me more. I want to know Him and I pray all day sometimes but it’s usually about how I feel. I’m a very selfish person when it comes to how I feel. I pray and hope I will change. I am thankful but like I said my selfishness I have inside of me is so powerful. Do you have any advice for me? Someone said just pray and have faith it seems easy but it’s not always easy when your like me.
 
Well the thing I'm thinking about is I'm on anti depressants so I don't want you confused. Cymbalta is very good for depression and I noticed that I've done so much better on it. God is ready to help you. You've come so far with what you are dealing with. I commend you for it.

Have you thought about anti depressants? When I wrote this I didn't realize how well I was doing and I forgot that I was just prescribed Cymbalta.

I'm on suboxone also and it def helps my cravings but I want off of this too. I have no withdrawals from the klonopin because I weaned down from July till now.

I won't say that it will happen immediately but God is waiting with His arms wide open for you.m

Come to christianforums.com cuz there are a lot of ppl there who can guide and help you. I believe you're a Christian seeking Gods help.

Pm me if you want more help.
 
I want to say the ALL things are possible through Christ.

I?ve asked for ten years as a prodigal son to be with my Datger again. Slowly by surely He is answering my prayers.

I?m here to witness and not practice my behavior issues as in abusing medication.

I was in 3 mg of klonopin a day TID for seven years. Even tho I weaned down there still should of been a withdrawal but there is none. God is your answer. Maybe meds will help but ultimately He is our answer.

I?ve come to the conclusion that my prayers are finally being answer. I have PRSD bad. I wake up from nightmares often in depersonalization and my go to drug was klonopin. There is no way cymbalta took away that desire. It was God.
 
Kristi God is the one helping me in my life. I hear Him as if He were right next to me. You break through is coming. I had to go thru a period of trials before u heard God.

I believe He?s doing the same thing for you. Hang in there. Your deliverance is in its way.
 
Sonic is soooo right.
FAITH in the lord will lead you in the right direction.
I?m exactly like the op, in that I call on god when things get bad instead of focusing on the lord always. Jesus is in the miracle business.
 
I don't understand this philosophy. Jesus/god could help millions of people, including children who suffer unspeakable atrocities every day and doesn't, but he steps in to help people with their fucking drug addictions? What kind of goofy fucking God is that??
 
I love yalls advice! Thank you for your reply’s and faith in God! It helps hearing positive feedback from Christians! I do want Him in my life everyday and every second!

After I got off of all the medicine, the doctor put me on Abilify. I went off of it after 60 days. I didn’t like it at all the weight gain was terrible and it made me isolated. I am open to trying other antidepressants.
 
Well just realize that God is able. I?m not going to knock God when He does something.

I?m pretty sure that it is Him doing all this in my life.

Cymbalta has just been good to me and I?m open to thinking it is helping but there is no way it could just wipe away my withdrawals.


I?ve like I said asked God for ten yrs to be back with Him. My joy is returning and I just like you kept asking Him to help me and my feelings. He knows that you need healing and that He doesn?t frown on you asking that.

PM me if you feel you need more info or what you would want help with in any certain area.

God bless.
 
I know for sure they aren’t talking about God helping with just drug addictions. Silly. It’s part of surrendering. See drug addicts like me feel sometimes that they know best. They think they know god but we don’t. When we meaning all humans come in a place in our life where we are sick of the bs no matter what drug, porn, food, spouses , whatever is determining our happiness and it’s no longer working Jesus is usually, well, the only and one we have to turn to. That’s what we all will come to knowing. Jesus was sent so we would have a chance to love others the way He loves. No we aren’t perfect and don’t ever believe perfection is even possible but we have hope in our savior. I understand what you are talking about and appreciate your opinion. I just wanted to explain what we mean when we talk about Gods help or Jesus.
 
I don?t care if it is Jesus or boy scout club that saves people from drug abuse but I definately understand that there has to be something to fill the void that drug abuse and getting drugs for abuse has left in our ?souls?.

In some cases it sadly seems like that turning to faith just replaces one addiction with another as the life change seems so dramatical.

Anyhow each to their own but I am somewhat being sick and tired of hearing about those ?Jesus saved me from drugs? stuff which actually leaves behind all the help that person has been getting from things like ORT and rehabs and such.

Most of those stories involve something else than just blind faith but it keeps getting lost because people are just yelling about Jesus.

If I have a cardiac arrest and survive because of a surgery I am sure I will thank the surgeon and his staff first instead of thanking god.

Most of my progress in being sober can be said to be because of that I have been asking for help from different places (BL being one huge part of it) and the fact that I am willing to accept that help and don?t fool myself about how my drug abuse would be because this and that happened instead that I decided to abuse drugs. As I have decided to abuse drugs in the first place I can decide to try not to abuse anymore.
 
To me the people helping you is because of God. I know you don’t want to hear this but I think a lot of times people get confused on what Jesus is all about. I was just like you and thought the same thing. I feel now that there is definitely a God. I don’t know how I can explain the experience I have had but I do know no one is here because of their own will. The mistakes we made we part of his plan so we would grow and help other people.

I am not judging you for your beliefs because I was just like you and I’m not religious but I’m spiritual. I just know there’s no way for me to get better without me surrendering to His Will, not mine.

I hope you you have a good day!! ��
 
I have had 2 good days! 87 days today and I feel I’m just now starting to get better! I have had depression really bad and anxiety. I started taking .50mgs of ability 4 days ago and it seemed to help me a lot. I hope my brain is just healing though. I am happier now and feel better about myself as a person.
Last night, I couldn’t sleep because I had anxiety about selling our home. We had a home inspector come by and they noted a lot of repairs and maintenance to be done. The sellers realtor told me that if we did not do a lot of the repairs it could cause him to not be able to get his VA loan. So I stayed up worrying and I have no control over it. I have always been an anxious person and I am always worrying about something. The drugs kept me from this and now it has come back. Does anyone know anything about a home inspection and how it plays into whether a person gets a loan or not? His realtor could be pushing me to fix a lot that he could do when we close on the home. But I’m not sure. Thanks!
 
Kristi...it's interesting that the abilify brought you some relief. I have also had some really positive experiences from periods on similar medications. What you're describing makes me think that you have some very real anxiety issues that you contend with. If the abilify helps, that's great. But if you feel like you need more support, I encourage you to talk frankly with your doctor (and therapist if you have one). Early recovery is inherently stressful and anxiety-producing. Maybe a low dose of a long-acting benzo such as diazepam could help for a while. Or as others have said, there are plenty of non-benzo anxiolytics out there. It all depends on your goals.

Just thought I'd mention too: I'm also doing repairs after a home inspection on a house I'm selling. It *is* stressful! <3
 
Thank you for your awesome advice!! It’s so encouraging that people actually do care!! Thank you!
 
Exercise, valerian root, gaba, tulsi tea and some good cannabis. Whatever you do don't take more benzo's. Laughter is also really good. Hang out with some friends and laugh. I found the following to be rather funny, " I?m a minister but I don?t have a degree but I know the Lord. He?s just waiting to heal you."
 
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That was really good advice! What about Kratom? I have taken some for the last 3 days and it seems to help but I’m not sure. I am scared because I read i just messed up my progress. Do you believe all the progress I have made is messed up now because of Kratom?
 
I’m waiting on His healing too! I’m ready to make a difference in my life and others as well! I’m ready for His healing and to understand Him the way we were meant to!
 
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