IMO, there is only one type of unconditional love, and that's the love we have for our children. Mine are 5 and 3. I love them so much it hurts. My wife, she loves me and I love her, but there is only so much a spouse can take of lying, going back our words, all in the name of addiction. Addiction to drugs and alcohol is so very strong, but, for me, what is fueling my path to sobriety is the unconditional love I have for my kids.
If I screw up – again – I know my wife leaving me is an actual possibility. I could live with that. What I absolutely cannot live with is the thought of not seeing my kids every day and night... all because of my choosing the pleasure, escape and numbness I get from oxycodone, alcohol, kratom, you name it.