I still want to respond to some of your previous post, but in the meantime I wanted to express that however my comments might come across, I truly sympathize with you about your feelings. And it's not just because I've been through it all with methadone myself. More like a comrade in arms (in recovery) kinda thing.
Given everything you've been through, it would be rather odd not to feel aversive to the whole methadone things. Unfortunately methadone patients have to really fight to get the quality of care they deserve, on an individual level, and it's really unacceptable that they didn't give you more support according to your own goals.
Harm reduction programs are designed to meet people wherever they are, to help the more work to accomplish whatever goals they have however they feel comfortable doing so, and a lot of time methadone providers are unable to provide effective care for their patients given the strict regulations on how it is used. Although it is very possible, it is also really tough for the average person (someone with an extensive knowledge of and background in opioid use disorder and its treatment) to make the most of the current system.
Anyways, more later. I'm just glad you're feeling better. Two weeks is pretty much standard for acute withdrawal, and your having tapered over the years (iirc) definitely helped avoid the ultimate worst case scenario.
On a more personal note, some of what you posted earlier really struck a nerve with me. I mean, like made me downright angry. Why I have no idea, because I deal with the stigma, myths and misconceptions surrounding substance use disorder, and opioid use disorder and ORT in particular, on a literally daily basis. I think I would really benefit from exploring what it was exactly that got to me with your post as opposed to others. Maybe because it made me feel powerless in a way? Iono. But I'm glad I didn't respond in too much detail while I was angry, because I really appreciated your more recent post, as you demonstrated quite succinctly that you are not in fact the nutjob my angry mind was making you out to me
anyways, enough about that. Moving on...
Please keep up the good work taking care of yourself in terms of non-drug use stuff goes. As youre clearly well aware, right now you need to get yourself super healthy for your upcoming child, so the more support you can find the better. If there is every anything we as BLers and staff can do to help support you, please let us know!
Question: how is your nutrition/diet? It probably is all the more important for pregnant women, but speaking to a nutritionist to find the optimum diet for oneself is an extremely useful thing to do in early recovery. Really getting all ducks lined up, especially as you're already working with your OB/GYN and I assume a GP on your health for new baby.
If you are interested (and can afford what I'm sure is a bit of a pricy program), there is a mindfulness based program for pregnant and new mothers I can share with you if you're interested. I found out about it through colleagues at UCLA when I was helping another pregnant mother deal with her drug use issues I think last year. Like I said, lemme know if you're interested. I feel like stress reduction after having just c/t'd methadone AND newly pregnant would be pretty important, but as someone who clearly isn't a pregnant female, what's do I know
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