TheOpposite
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 25, 2017
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- 280
I know that our lives are not a carbon copy of each other, and it's near impossible to truly understand another person's situation and feelings 100%. No matter how much interaction there is. Nothing can change the past for either of us and I wish we could have just one time that we could hit rewind and get to go back and make a different decision at a bad time in our lives. I have so many regrets, I am such a disappointment and embarrassment to my family and I am stuck with that forever. Each of us has our own darkness but we have also been given the ability to share with each other and lift each other up in a time of need. You have a nine year old daughter, that is one of the most beautiful gifts that our species has been given. I hope you look to her and just feel warmth and happiness and use her as motivation to stay alive and make a change. Easier said then done I know, I don't have any chdren just nephews and nieces. I try to help them and give them advice to not make the same mistakes as I have. It feels good when I can share with them and steer them in the right direction. So writing a book, finishing school and your daughter, that is three excellent reasons to hang on and you can find a lot of love and happiness in those categories. I know it's damn near impossible to overcome the negative feelings but you have beautiful reasons to hang around, just one step at a time. Hang on!
I read most of what you said while Asia and I are taking a break. Asia is my dog. Yes she's beautiful, I didn't realize your name till now.
Based off my quick reading...? Dude get off the pills. All of them. And all substances. If you still feel suicidal? Center yourself and cut everyone off. Except your pets.
That's what I have done in my 27 years. I feel acceptance and peace. It's almost my time. I just have to figure out how to explain myself as I feel fit to my loved ones.
I will not leave looking like cowardess. No.