For real I would have bought ten grams of 2C-E. That is hands down one of the best psychedelics out there. I could have been able to trip on it monthly for many years. I'd also really liked 2C-D a lot. Sadly I was never able to sample 2C-C. Back in the time when they all got scheduled I was Obsessed with synthetic cannabinoids.
I must have sampled the entire JWH series damn near. And all that vaping/smoking of those contributed to me having breathing problems in my opinion. I was using so much of the JWH that when i quit I had a signifagent withdrawal syndrome. Also had a wide array of Cathinones, I was rolling weekly in those days which is very unhealthy. But when you are young you think you are invincible. Wish I had stockpiled more 2C-x when i had the chance. Amazing series of compounds. Think I'd tried 4 of them T-7, 2C-I, 2C-E and 2C-D.
As the music came to an end, I found myself approaching my apartment again. I went in and drank my prepared kratom, as I knew I was coming all the way down now and my girlfriend would be home in about an hour, and I wanted to be in a better place to interact with her. Also, I was really feeling the back tension, and the kratom allows me to relax and give my back muscles a break. In retrospect, I really feel like the drug was trying to get me to address the problem I've had my whole life with posture. I slouch my shoulders a bit, and I've come to realize that this will cause me significant pain later in life, as it is actually already beginning to. Next time with the drug, I will try to get more into that, as I think it's very important to my future quality of life. This was a double-edged sword, however.
See, kratom and I have a pretty long history of, frankly, abuse. I've always felt very healthy and feel that it hasn't had any negative impact on my health, either physically or mentally, but emotionally is another story. I've become completely addicted to it and I rely on it to get me through the day. A big trigger for my blue funk is the first time I withdrew from kratom. It's as if it unlocked a part of my brain, like now I knew that real depression was possible, and it never quite went away, even after I got more and continued using. I was very sad as I drank the kratom today because it was my last glass. It was getting expensive and frankly, this experience showed me under no uncertain terms that I had to stop being addicted to it, as it would be my downfall someday. I know I'll have a rough few days ahead of me, but I feel that this experience will give me the necessary tools to deal with it. Last time I withdrew, I couldn't deal with the depression; I was bedridden for about half the time, curled into a ball, feeling hopeless, helpless, and on the verge of a panic attack almost constantly. So I drank the kratom, allowing myself to really taste it this time, as if to be more truthful with myself and my problem. I gagged, teared up at the sadness of it all, and settled down to write this report.
A week later I had my second significant experience. In between the two, I withdrew fully from kratom. It was bad, but definitely easier than the first time. I became extremely emotional, and cried easily, even at cheesy Lifetime originals. I nearly relapsed multiple times, but eventually, by the end of the fifth day without, was able to feel normal again, and a HUGE surge of happiness came through me, more happy each and every hour than I've been in... at least a year. Another part of the withdrawal was the extremely restlessness of my limbs, which made it nearly impossible to sleep. I probably got 3 hours of sleep at most each night for those five days, once getting only 1.5 hours. Anyway, after I finished withdrawing, I made the decision to buy another pound of kratom, but this time I felt confident that I could control it.
The reason for this is that I find it to be a very good tool if used properly. For one, I no longer care at all for alcohol, as it just feels like poison and makes me feel gross and stupid, so kratom is a good substitute for me on nights where I want some sort of relaxing substance to partake of. Also, kratom can be very therapeutic if used occasionally, as it provides a wonderful euphoria and increased confidence. Thirdly, it's a great medicine for ridding one of aches, pains, and gastric distress particularly. Finally, I've re-begun my psychedelic explorations and plan to have many in the future, and it's a wonderful way to come down from a trip without becoming uncomfortable or having trouble re-integrating into society. It also allows me to get into a more receptive state of mind for communicating my experiences. You may think this is all just rationalizing to myself, but at the time of this writing, a few days after the second experience and about 7 days after receiving the kratom, I've only used it once, and that was for coming down from my second experience. This, I think, points to possible anti-addictive properties that I feel 2C-T-2 has.
Wow, it's so weird that those early trips I wrote about happened 14 years ago now...
Yeah I'm really curious about MIPLA, I've thought about ordering like 10 of them.
You don't see fretless guitars often, mostly people will sort of imitate fretless by playing slide. But I've seen quite a few fretless basses.
Jamming with friends while tripping is one of my very favorite things in the world, especially when you record it. My friend and I used to do "tryptamine jams" where we would take about 40mg total of a single or combo of 4-sub-tryptamines along with like 15mg of MXE (enough to provide an ideal launch pad but not produce real dissociation) and play music for the duration of the trip. Sometimes I would feel like my hands were being guided, I would just be watching with seemingly no conscious control, with the music creating epic storylines in my mind's eye. We haven't done one in a couple of years because everyone is way busier and my friend is in a touring band.
Img_9999, I'd like to hear those recordings if you don't mind posting them.