logarithm
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- Aug 11, 2012
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took amphetamines in doses of usually 1 to 5mg combined with phenibut up to 3 grams per dose several times a day. finally i used around 50 to 60 grams phenibut in 10 days. also i smoked at around one to two packs of cigarettes a day or night. sleep was very bad after some days. sometimes i woke up in the night and was psychotic. had visiual hallucinations and heard sounds as if something is hittimg in my ears. got strong tic type movements.i woke up one night and my face looked like it is hanging down after some days i had problems in moving my left arm, leg and mouth. since then they move stuttering quirky or inexact. my left part of the body feels numb. on day ten i stopped taking phenibut. After these ten days i was sleepless for 7 days. in some nights i took small doses of phenibut in hope to calm me down. I also tried alcohol but that prolonged withdrawal for two more days. Then after 7 sleepless nights i slept 8 hours. next day morning i felt good. but soon realized that if somebody speaks to me complex stuff, i couldnt follow it or i just forgot. have problems remembering also. on that day i made a list on what to do the next days and wrote stuff to some people. at around midpart of the day i got stressed and felt like no motivation. i worried a lot. then the movement disorders came back. was able to get 6 hours of sleep. but very difficult. woke up again and cant really do anything but feel pretty awake. after sleeping the movement disorders of left body got better. have suicidal thinking. took sleeping pill iterax does nothing. when taking gabapentin on day 7 i felt amazingly awake and automatically did go out to buy many sleeping pills to kill myself. but stopped after i couldnt find any conclusive answer if the pills are deadly. dont know what to do. feel like brain damaged and cant do anything. just want kill myself. i am in asia far away from family but have some people who care about me. how can i sleep/ gabapentin again? or better not? will the movement disorders of my left body go back? did most of my life take medication, stimulants, alcohol, other drugs sometimes, mixing them? is my brain getting parkinson?
my girlfriend left me with onset of withdrawal.was diagnosed as child and adult with adhd. my mind is constantly worryimg now. my mind feels to weak to think about something else. i feel mentally impaired. sleeping pills dont work. my back hurts and my body feels stiff. i just want to sleep or kill myself. what can i do?
Gabapentin just makes me awake and i cant sleep!! How can i sleep and what is that movement disorders? I checked for stroke but is fine... Parkinson or what?
I was already at three doctors. They gave me vitamin b and sleeping pills. But the pills dont work. How can i recover? And how long will it take?
my girlfriend left me with onset of withdrawal.was diagnosed as child and adult with adhd. my mind is constantly worryimg now. my mind feels to weak to think about something else. i feel mentally impaired. sleeping pills dont work. my back hurts and my body feels stiff. i just want to sleep or kill myself. what can i do?
Gabapentin just makes me awake and i cant sleep!! How can i sleep and what is that movement disorders? I checked for stroke but is fine... Parkinson or what?
I was already at three doctors. They gave me vitamin b and sleeping pills. But the pills dont work. How can i recover? And how long will it take?
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