Hi guys,
Hope you're all well.
Please note, I'm an experienced drug user and have used MDMA responsibly many times in the past. I am fully aware of how stupid my actions were and was caught in a rough life situation seeking comfort from chemicals. I do not need to be chastised, I need advice and support.
So...I wanted to post this experience mainly to flag how stupid I was and how you should never do the same. I've very knowledgable about MDMA but clearly lose control of my inhibitions whilst high.
Okay...So from Thursday night to Sunday morning, I consumed 3g of MDMA. Yes, I'm aware this is an obscene dose but people have done worse and lived to tell the tale.
I must have taken MDMA around 50 times over the past 4 years or so. Recently, I've not taken it a lot, maybe five times over the past year. I usually get the normal comedown (aside from the first few times) and am pretty down and low for 3-7 days. I test everything and usually keep the dose safe.
However, this is the only time I've taken MDMA and feel like I'm really going to take the price for it. I bought 2g with the intention of going Clubbing on Saturday (I'm now not going to go as I realise this would be stupid and that my brain needs a good break now) The most frustrating thing is that I tried some in my bedroom (probably about 200mg) to see how I'd react, once again, a stupid move - word of advise - DON'T BOTHER TAKING ECSTACY ALONE, YOU'LL ONLY REGRET NOT SAVING IT FOR A MUSIC EVENT, TO TAKE WITH FRIENDS.
So I got so high and inhibited that I took the whole two grams over the course of two days. On the Saturday, I thought "oh damn, none left for clubbing next Saturday now" - so I picked up another gram (along with a gram of coke) and got high as fuck on booze and the coke. When I got home I figured again, I wonder if I have any seratonin left to get high? This resulted in me going though the whole gram of MD and that's where I am at now.
I've now had around 4 days of recovery and here are my symptoms:
Really evidently:
BODY TEMPERATURE DOWN SIGNIFICANTLY
EXTREME NAUSEA BUT NOT BEEN SICK
FEEL VERY LIGHTHEADED
LACK OF MOTIVATION (Can't be arsed to shower / exercise)
POOR SLEEP
DEPRESSION
EASY TO AGGRAVATE
DON'T WANT TO GO OUTSIDE DESPITE IT BEING BRIGHT AND SUNNY
Before taking the MD, I was exercising every other day, eating VERY clean and had a good mindset.
Now what I should have done....is stashed the MD, set aside 0.4g for the clubbing (not all for me, to potentially share with friends / girls), had a great night at the club dancing and experience much less of a comedown (most likely back to myself in 3-5 days)
Now I expect to feel like death for at least two weeks, have no MD left and feel massively ashamed and stupid about my actions. I'm eating well, taking some supps and staying away from the gym until the nausea and lightheadedness goes.
Just a word to you all - we can all do stupid things when high / drunk. I highly highly advise you to set aside a safe dosage, take it with you and LEAVE THE REST AT HOME.
If anyone does have any advise, I'm all ears
EDIT - Just had a shower and feel much worse instantly. I feel sick, dizzy, lightheaded and have no appetite. I know for sure that I've done some damage here. I'm not even going to consider exercise until I see improvements on the nausea and lightheaded front.
It's moments like this that make you appreciate small things in life - going out for dinner, chilling with your mates, going to the gym, cooking a nice meal, meeting new people
Hope you're all well.
Please note, I'm an experienced drug user and have used MDMA responsibly many times in the past. I am fully aware of how stupid my actions were and was caught in a rough life situation seeking comfort from chemicals. I do not need to be chastised, I need advice and support.
So...I wanted to post this experience mainly to flag how stupid I was and how you should never do the same. I've very knowledgable about MDMA but clearly lose control of my inhibitions whilst high.
Okay...So from Thursday night to Sunday morning, I consumed 3g of MDMA. Yes, I'm aware this is an obscene dose but people have done worse and lived to tell the tale.
I must have taken MDMA around 50 times over the past 4 years or so. Recently, I've not taken it a lot, maybe five times over the past year. I usually get the normal comedown (aside from the first few times) and am pretty down and low for 3-7 days. I test everything and usually keep the dose safe.
However, this is the only time I've taken MDMA and feel like I'm really going to take the price for it. I bought 2g with the intention of going Clubbing on Saturday (I'm now not going to go as I realise this would be stupid and that my brain needs a good break now) The most frustrating thing is that I tried some in my bedroom (probably about 200mg) to see how I'd react, once again, a stupid move - word of advise - DON'T BOTHER TAKING ECSTACY ALONE, YOU'LL ONLY REGRET NOT SAVING IT FOR A MUSIC EVENT, TO TAKE WITH FRIENDS.
So I got so high and inhibited that I took the whole two grams over the course of two days. On the Saturday, I thought "oh damn, none left for clubbing next Saturday now" - so I picked up another gram (along with a gram of coke) and got high as fuck on booze and the coke. When I got home I figured again, I wonder if I have any seratonin left to get high? This resulted in me going though the whole gram of MD and that's where I am at now.
I've now had around 4 days of recovery and here are my symptoms:
Really evidently:
BODY TEMPERATURE DOWN SIGNIFICANTLY
EXTREME NAUSEA BUT NOT BEEN SICK
FEEL VERY LIGHTHEADED
LACK OF MOTIVATION (Can't be arsed to shower / exercise)
POOR SLEEP
DEPRESSION
EASY TO AGGRAVATE
DON'T WANT TO GO OUTSIDE DESPITE IT BEING BRIGHT AND SUNNY
Before taking the MD, I was exercising every other day, eating VERY clean and had a good mindset.
Now what I should have done....is stashed the MD, set aside 0.4g for the clubbing (not all for me, to potentially share with friends / girls), had a great night at the club dancing and experience much less of a comedown (most likely back to myself in 3-5 days)
Now I expect to feel like death for at least two weeks, have no MD left and feel massively ashamed and stupid about my actions. I'm eating well, taking some supps and staying away from the gym until the nausea and lightheadedness goes.
Just a word to you all - we can all do stupid things when high / drunk. I highly highly advise you to set aside a safe dosage, take it with you and LEAVE THE REST AT HOME.
If anyone does have any advise, I'm all ears
EDIT - Just had a shower and feel much worse instantly. I feel sick, dizzy, lightheaded and have no appetite. I know for sure that I've done some damage here. I'm not even going to consider exercise until I see improvements on the nausea and lightheaded front.
It's moments like this that make you appreciate small things in life - going out for dinner, chilling with your mates, going to the gym, cooking a nice meal, meeting new people
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