Do you feel your methadone still? I remembered we talked I was on bupe now well am also on methadone 50mg though tapred was on 120 but it stopped getting me high really soon so am at 50 know idk is it even worth it to go up to 60 to feel it? I dont take benzo's daily like you but sometime's I do and when I take benzo's and promethazine I feel It a little bit for a few hours.
Of course I feel it.
But if I want to get high/nod/feel euphoric I have to take extra Methadone. 10-30mg extra on top of my new dose of 90mg makes me feel like I'm on 200mg of Oxycodone.
Ever since I tried Methadone, even in treatment I fell in love with it.
idk why but I did.
It saved my life is def. the #1 reason.
Also, you know when your dope sick and in severe Withdrawal...whether you slam, smoke, and snort your H, Take Oxy, or any other high powered opiate..feels INCREDIBLE. Til this day, I still think that's the best feeling in the world.
Nothing compares (I'm single, and young, so yes there will be better times ahead of me... But right now I'm just having fun while it still lasts).
I never even IV.
When I was on Heroin, of course from the West Coast we get Black tar.
Which is a HUGE PLUS for me because I hate snorting ANY DRUG, I don't IV, and Chasing the dragon is the absolute funnest ROA.
You know you had those days when you couldn't get dope for w.e reason... Dealers are dry, no money, whatever reason.
Then you get sick as hell...
then your dealer calls and says he's got some.. You jump out of your bed and run to get some..and when you smoke that first big ol line, and get well, get the goosebumps, and feel the rush....ahhhh feels TOO GOOD MAYNE.
I felt VERY similar when I started Methadone treatment.
My very first dose was INCREDIBLE.