fairnymph
Bluelighter
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GHB and Meth is so good. That is probably my #1 but I added buprenorphine IV and shatter because I?m a derelict.
“Having to IV yourself” I love to see this language. It means someone somewhere can IV and not fall in love with it like I did. Totally gross self destructive obsession.
But really you don’t get a huge rush from shooting it?
I seem to be incapable of psychological addiction to drugs, which is kinda weird bc I have OCD. I do really like prepping & have a needle/blood/vein fetish - even as a kid. But I only enjoy IVing other people. So yes, it's totally possible. I've IVed only 15-20x in 18yrs as a polydrug user. Definitely under 20. IM, maybe 25x. I find IMing myself, particularly with k which is mostly the only thing I IM, much less unpleasant/scary than IV. I REALLY don't want to ever damage my veins or have marks.
I rarely get rushes from any drug. Only that very subtle but definitely pleasurable fizzing/bubble popping sensation in my brain the very 1st time IVed, that sub recreational dose of meth. No rush at all from my 2nd, slightly too much IV meth dose, nor from my many times smoking it. I don't get a rush from IV h, though I get a weird and not unpleasant sensation in my throat. No rush from snorting or smoking coke, but definitely from IV (all 3 times). No rush from snorting other stims, of which I've tried most. I just don't get rushes it seems - except from IV coke, & even then, it's not like the initial onset is different from the other 9.9 minutes of the experience - so that might not even qualify as a real rush. The only experience I feel was definitely a rush, albeit extremely slight, was that very 1st low dose IV meth. I suspect the lack of rush (& probably overall reduced euphoria relative to others), is part of why I don't crave drugs, or get addicted.
I do NOW, as a heavy h user, get a rush from smoking crack/freebase. It's not super strong but it has led to me using up all I had in a week (like .8g) which is very unusual for me. It's the first time I ever compulsively used a drug, though I did happen to have a horrible ear infection which only smoking seemed to help. I haven't gotten more since despite opportunity, though I do plan to eventually. I never felt this way about it before, & the stuff I had then was much stronger/purer.
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