Relapse is to be expected with any chronic illness, not judged or moralized. I am really proud of you endless nameless, for your accomplishments and what you have learned from your experience, your successes and failures.
Taking alcohol and drug studies classes (the stuff you have to do to become a licensed drug counselor in my state), I now really understand how "addiction" is far, far from a one size fits all picture. I really like how the DSM 5 approaches this with a spectrum (though it is an inherently flawed system, at least it will be until drug users are treated AND looked upon as human beings as opposed to criminals) - to be called an addict only means so much: addiction represents a range of conditions, behaviors, etc.
There are the worst addictions, the ones that kill you, and they are not limited to any one drugs - alcohol, sugar, nicotine, heroin, cocaine, even concentrated cannabis and such can contribute to a very unhealthy lifestyle and socialization that will end up have a negative impact on your life in all ways - the whole jails, institutions and death thing.
But there are lots of other addicts too. The ones that don't die. Who have experience death briefly, but seemed to have survived. The ones who escape society's jails, institution and death - the alienation of addiction can kill just as well as an overdose or bad batch.
What I'm ultimately saying is that we might be addicts, but we are humans first. We are community members, and whether we like it or not we are also brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts, fathers, mothers, grandmother and grandfathers. We work with each other, we don't just pray on one another. And I have always seen people in all communities, even the worst of conditions (think skid rows and prisons).
What kills more than anything is, in the worlds of DJ Shadow, is so much more the social narcotic than any literal one. The ignorance and alienation produced by draconian, inhumane policies of money hungry greedy, selfish ignorance is what I'm speaking of. Ignorant bliss is the social narcotic.
Control, in the words of W.S. Burroughs.
My worldview see the inherent goodness in people, a dignity than can never be completely be removed, even by themselves, even in death, as the focal point. How you see things may be different. But what do you do about ignorance? What do you do about alienation? There are no simple answers.
Just like when we become dependent and develop problematic histories of drug misuse, addicted some would say, we can only do the best we can, but only if one tries.