RodJonse
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 26, 2012
- Messages
- 291
Good morning Bluelight. I apologize if this sounds whiny but I figured someone here could probably help - suffering from something pretty common.
I'm at a pretty dark time now in my life, and while I don't find myself crying in the rain outside like some meth users have mentioned (or something akin to that) with opioids, I still feel pretty terrible. It doesn't help that I'm a nihilistic fuck who wants to either succeed in the arts or just call it a day (as another user said, reality sucks). Or that I've got chronic pain with one neck MRI showing nothing conclusive and one pending (I'm ordering more expensive and more recommended kratom for the pain since what I have lasts about 40 minutes before I feel like shit inexplicably).
But I don't want to drone on about that. Ultimate point of it is that AZ doctors are some of the stingiest fucks on the planet Earth and my mother put me through chiropractic regularly since I was seven years old, before I could comprehend what alternative medicine was.
Anyways, I don't take opiates anymore. Just been sticking with this kratom. Sadly carrying the same cons as all the other opioids.
The constipation is manageable and a bluelighter helped me out with that.
But the one that I can't take anymore is what it does to one's hearing! Especially as a musician, especially as someone with expensive cans and media players. I went from amazing sound to what I have now: constantly muffled. Clearing ear tubes via pinching nose doesn't help. Highs are less prominent. Everything sounds fucked up and it's not any of my tech. Feels like I've lost a good chunk of volume hearing too and that's the worst part. It sucks.
Opioids/opiates often go hand in hand with music, or at least in the communities I've known. Anyone know ANYTHING to help with the hearing? I currently have to wait about 30 hours with no kratom to get it to slightly return to what I remember, and at that point I feel like shit.
I'm at a pretty dark time now in my life, and while I don't find myself crying in the rain outside like some meth users have mentioned (or something akin to that) with opioids, I still feel pretty terrible. It doesn't help that I'm a nihilistic fuck who wants to either succeed in the arts or just call it a day (as another user said, reality sucks). Or that I've got chronic pain with one neck MRI showing nothing conclusive and one pending (I'm ordering more expensive and more recommended kratom for the pain since what I have lasts about 40 minutes before I feel like shit inexplicably).
But I don't want to drone on about that. Ultimate point of it is that AZ doctors are some of the stingiest fucks on the planet Earth and my mother put me through chiropractic regularly since I was seven years old, before I could comprehend what alternative medicine was.
Anyways, I don't take opiates anymore. Just been sticking with this kratom. Sadly carrying the same cons as all the other opioids.
The constipation is manageable and a bluelighter helped me out with that.
But the one that I can't take anymore is what it does to one's hearing! Especially as a musician, especially as someone with expensive cans and media players. I went from amazing sound to what I have now: constantly muffled. Clearing ear tubes via pinching nose doesn't help. Highs are less prominent. Everything sounds fucked up and it's not any of my tech. Feels like I've lost a good chunk of volume hearing too and that's the worst part. It sucks.
Opioids/opiates often go hand in hand with music, or at least in the communities I've known. Anyone know ANYTHING to help with the hearing? I currently have to wait about 30 hours with no kratom to get it to slightly return to what I remember, and at that point I feel like shit.