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RIP knock

Didn't know Michael as well as I'd have liked to. We only really spoke briefly but genuinely thought the man was indestructible. Took a lot of shit on his shoulders but never complained - always a gent, a true servant to EADD.
 
Same here, we'd only chatted a couple of times, about Linux stuff and me being mod on here, but he really made EADD the last few years.

Another one who will be greatly missed. RIP Michael :(

Take care of yourselves guys <3
 
Really so so awful. I really can' believe it. I didn't know him well but had exchanged a few pms and we had a laugh over some silly random shit after the de-mod.

Intelligent, bright funny people ..just why...rest easy now wherever you are <3
 
That was played at a funeral I went to.

That brought back a lot of emotion. Could only play 2 minutes, was crying too much.

:(
Ditto - My Dad played it at the end of my Nan's.... I always tear up when I play it.

I raise my glass to toast you Knock <3
 
Very sad news. Talked to knock a little about his explorations with al-lad and really liked him.
 
I didn't know knock, I won't pretend too.

This has made me sad, I didn't think a person passing away that I didn't know could. I'm sorry for all of you that could call him a friend. I'm sorry for all of his family. And I'm sorry for EADD, you only know what you had once its gone.


shine on you crazy diamond.
 
I still can't take it in after 2 xanax an a bit of speed, i havent felt this way about a members death ever as far as I recall, This time I really do think I could have done more.

I hope things has not gotten so bad he chose to end his journey early, he knew that I've had strong compulsions to do this myself, IMHO it's almost impossible to get people out of that state of mind without specialist treatment or even drugs for a period. I make a bit of a point of never simply telling people not to do, IME that is pointless, I rather discuss with them about why they feel that way, for me is was the absence of any other option, once I could see another way I took that for a while at least.

I regret not having tried to be a friend to him and hope he did not passing feeling alone.

Sorry for the tl:dr I am very much saddened by the passing of a truly great human being:|
 
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I had seen birth and death but had thought they were different.
T. S. Eliot

knock<3
 
Go easy on the drugs folks.

I know it is tempting to use them to help with your grief, but its natural to feel such strong grief. You have to deal with it at some point.

Easier said than done.
 
Hadn't seen it myself, dang that sucks to read :(

He really was a top man, very genuine.
 
Of all the news to make a belated return to... fuck. Found out halfway through making my first foray into the modthread... one minute I was all fiesty and fired up for arguing the toss over his demodding then... three lil words and everything changed. Am genuinely lost for words. And deeply, deeply saddened at the passing of somebody I have long considered a friend <3

And this horrible news comes at such a strange time for me I am so confused and unsure of quite what to say so will, for now, simply quote my immediate reaction from the modthread. I can but hope he will appreciate the irony...

Me said:
And Knock? I know you are there - suspect that came as a bit of a surprise to you too, huh? :D - but I know... and can but hope you're reeling in all the right ways cos is a doozy, huh? 8o

Enjoy your newfound 8-D Wonderland, and - if at all possible - I hope to catch you somewhere along the way cos believe me I could do with somebody who'll be equally as baffled by the Whole Shebang but with perhaps that wee bit of understanding and comprehension that I still have a very long way to achieving. I truly don't know how these things work so don't know if you can see this specifically... but I kinda know you can. Who knew? About... well... y'know... Hope you can maybe be one of those lights amongst the shadows for me, Michael. But on a basic, simplistic, 4-D (at best) bogstandard view of it al, between times, you will be truly missed <3

Don't expect explanations, the above is a statement of fact, not discussion.

Michael <3
 
I took a couple of hours out just now to talk with a friend but this just hurts so bad. Even though I've only been around for a couple of years i felt I was growing closer to knock every day, especially over the last six months after i took a well needed break from drugs and began to interact with others in a much more positive way. I genuinely felt like 20 years from now ne and knock would be real strong freinds, still talking shit, still reading each other minds and probably still putting a few too many chems in our bodies than would be good for us.

I'm totally fucked. I'm a bit of man's man, inspite of being the biggest softy going at the same time, but i balled my fuckin eyes out for 30 mins straight when i read the news. I'm welling up now, and not being funny, but i just don't cry. its not something i do. This is gonna take so long for me to get over. I fuckin loved that guy to death man. Like I said earlier, I'm just glad i am off the bottle these days as god knows what i might have ended up doing tonght after i got the news had i then drowned my sorrows with a couple of bottles of vodka. I'm done, i can't do this anymore tonight.
 
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