Hello
I wrote this trip report up over two weeks ago and decided to share here for all to see.
Around three weeks ago I had my first run in with ecstasy. I'd managed to obtain a gram of pure molly from a reputable dealer and it tested as ecstasy with the EZ test kit - which came up as expected.
I'd read a lot up on the safety beforehand and had taken steps to ensure that I was as safe as possible while using the drugs - in particular I had a close friend agree to watch me and keep an eye on my water intake, and to make sure that I was forcing myself to use the toilet every hour to make sure I didn't end up with water intoxication. Anyway... onto the report, time's are estimated.
Background: 5'10', 68kg, 18yo. Little previous drug experience. On quetiapine 200mg every night for a moderate psychotic episode I had a few years back - long since gone. Always wanted to try MDMA, so decided to give it a go...
T: -5.00 Ate a moderate size meal.
T: -1.00 Took 100mg of 5-HTP and 600mg Magnesium (To combat Bruxism)
T: 0:00 I weighed out 75mg of E and put it inside a capsule before swallowing. At this time I was laid on my bed listening to music with my friend. I decided to avoid any major socialisation as I tend to like to just relax when trying new drugs.
T: +0:15 My friend left to go meet a few friends just down my hallway (I lived in shared housing) - She'd be returning every 15 or 20 minutes or so to check up on me.
T: +0:30 By this time I was fairly relaxed, with my eyes open in a somewhat darkened room with a lamp on for ambience. Despite this I still felt somewhat excited and nervous in anticipation of what would happen. Generally I'm a fairly calm individual and not prone to anxiety, although there was a hint of worry whilst waiting.
T: +0:35 I begin to feel a warm sensation and get slightly more anxious as I recognise it as the 'come up'. By this time my body is somewhat flushed and hot, but my extremities are cold in comparison.
T: +0:40 Anxiety increases, my friend comes in and checks if I'm okay. I say i'm coming up but I'm nervous, she says it'll pass and I calm down somewhat. She leaves. The hot flushes are now coming in waves a few seconds apart. I check in a small mirror near me, my pupils are very dilated - my brown iris is almost completely gone.
T: +0:41 I get a sudden wave of weakness. Frightening me slightly, as I had read that people usually have lots of energy on E, I decide to sit up and lean against my wave. It took a lot of effort to get myself up however. Lights seem more vibrant and music is beginning to sound great. At this time I'm closing my eyes and trying to relax to get rid of the anxiety.
T: +0:44 I suddenly get hit by a wave of euphoria. It was literally the best feeling I've experienced during my life, I'm suddenly relieved of all worry and anxiety and simply close my eyes and relax, listing to music beside me - I can't remember what was playing at this time, it all sounded so good that I didn't care. But then...
T: +0:45 I suddenly open my eyes and my whole body goes deathly cold. This terrible realisation comes over me and I whispered to myself "This is not good". I'm feeling completely drained of energy and this all encompassing fear begins to take ahold of me, growing in waves. I take a gulp of water to try and combat any safety fears. I decide to just bear it and wait it out, figuring the severe anxiety would pass.
T: +0:50 Getting worse, I start to panic. I decide to browse the internet on my laptop, which is playing music by my side, to take my mind of it.
T: +0.55 I suddenly realise that I'm experiencing severe time dilation (So following times may be off). Songs fluctuate between sounding too fast and too slow. I try watching a Let's Play on youtube and am frightened by the speed at which the commentator appears to be talking. My anxiety reaches it peak, I feel terrible, although underlying it all is a sense of wellness.
T: +0:56 My friend comes it and I quickly explain what's happening. She seems somewhat concerned and decided to get me to take a drink and then help me into the bathroom - as I'm far too weak. I force myself to go to the toilet. Check of my urine colour tells me i'm generally well hydrated. I make my way back into my room. My friend stays with me for the next hour and a half.
T: +1:00 I slump back down on my bed, music still playing. Check my pulse, it's close to 140. My body is fluctuating between being too hot and too cold - all my bones ache and I generally feel like shit.
T: +1:15 My mind suddenly tunes into what's playing. It's the end of 'Kartoffelsuppe' by 'Grossstadtgeflüster' - which sounds a little like demonic chanting. At the time I didn't realise this was a song, and the demonic aspect, which seems to last forever because of time dilation, literally made me loose what sanity I had left remaining.
T: +1:16 I get up, now with more energy, and begin pacing frantically around my room. I turn off the music and keep talking to a whisper.
T: +1:40 Somewhat distressed I tell my friend I want this to end this now, along with our safe word. She runs off to her room to grab a couple of benzos (Temazepam). I take them immediately and then begin to clean my room to stave off anxiety. I also get rid of the rest of the MDMA instinctively, with my friend agreeing.
T: +2:10 I begin to feel relief from the benzos. Now I'm feeling a lot more mellow and chilled out. I still don't want to listen to music but I chat normally with my friend while resting on my bed. I noticed the time dilation stopped.
T: +2:25 Feeling much better my friend leaves to let me get some rest in peace.
T: +2:40 I take 100mg Quetiapine.
T: +3:10 Quetiapine hits, starting to feel drowsy.
T: +3:20 Decide to call it a night and take another 200mg of quetiapine along with 10mg Melotonin, 500mg 5-HTP, 1500mg Vitamin C, 2400mg Piracetam and various multivitamins.
T: +3:35 I fall asleep.
The next day I awoke with an amazing afterglow. Eyes were slighly dilated and I felt very warm with all my senses greatly enhanced for around three hours after waking. After that I returned to normal and haven't suffered from any major side effects beside my memory being a little hazy for a couple of days.
I'm not sure why I had such a bad experience, although Grossstadtgeflüster turned what was otherwise a bad trip to one filled with utter panic. Some have suggested I experienced a mild bout of stimulant psychosis, whilst others have said that the MDMA was not, in fact, MDMA. I'm not sure myself, and I've got rid of all of what I had so I can't test it. But am interested in what others think - especially as I plan to roll again next week (one month after) with a lower dose (50mg). So any advice would be appreciated. I got some professionally tested MDMA from a friend (everyone got theirs tested after my experience) so I know this time it's defiantly MDMA and nothing else.
I wrote this trip report up over two weeks ago and decided to share here for all to see.
Around three weeks ago I had my first run in with ecstasy. I'd managed to obtain a gram of pure molly from a reputable dealer and it tested as ecstasy with the EZ test kit - which came up as expected.
I'd read a lot up on the safety beforehand and had taken steps to ensure that I was as safe as possible while using the drugs - in particular I had a close friend agree to watch me and keep an eye on my water intake, and to make sure that I was forcing myself to use the toilet every hour to make sure I didn't end up with water intoxication. Anyway... onto the report, time's are estimated.
Background: 5'10', 68kg, 18yo. Little previous drug experience. On quetiapine 200mg every night for a moderate psychotic episode I had a few years back - long since gone. Always wanted to try MDMA, so decided to give it a go...
T: -5.00 Ate a moderate size meal.
T: -1.00 Took 100mg of 5-HTP and 600mg Magnesium (To combat Bruxism)
T: 0:00 I weighed out 75mg of E and put it inside a capsule before swallowing. At this time I was laid on my bed listening to music with my friend. I decided to avoid any major socialisation as I tend to like to just relax when trying new drugs.
T: +0:15 My friend left to go meet a few friends just down my hallway (I lived in shared housing) - She'd be returning every 15 or 20 minutes or so to check up on me.
T: +0:30 By this time I was fairly relaxed, with my eyes open in a somewhat darkened room with a lamp on for ambience. Despite this I still felt somewhat excited and nervous in anticipation of what would happen. Generally I'm a fairly calm individual and not prone to anxiety, although there was a hint of worry whilst waiting.
T: +0:35 I begin to feel a warm sensation and get slightly more anxious as I recognise it as the 'come up'. By this time my body is somewhat flushed and hot, but my extremities are cold in comparison.
T: +0:40 Anxiety increases, my friend comes in and checks if I'm okay. I say i'm coming up but I'm nervous, she says it'll pass and I calm down somewhat. She leaves. The hot flushes are now coming in waves a few seconds apart. I check in a small mirror near me, my pupils are very dilated - my brown iris is almost completely gone.
T: +0:41 I get a sudden wave of weakness. Frightening me slightly, as I had read that people usually have lots of energy on E, I decide to sit up and lean against my wave. It took a lot of effort to get myself up however. Lights seem more vibrant and music is beginning to sound great. At this time I'm closing my eyes and trying to relax to get rid of the anxiety.
T: +0:44 I suddenly get hit by a wave of euphoria. It was literally the best feeling I've experienced during my life, I'm suddenly relieved of all worry and anxiety and simply close my eyes and relax, listing to music beside me - I can't remember what was playing at this time, it all sounded so good that I didn't care. But then...
T: +0:45 I suddenly open my eyes and my whole body goes deathly cold. This terrible realisation comes over me and I whispered to myself "This is not good". I'm feeling completely drained of energy and this all encompassing fear begins to take ahold of me, growing in waves. I take a gulp of water to try and combat any safety fears. I decide to just bear it and wait it out, figuring the severe anxiety would pass.
T: +0:50 Getting worse, I start to panic. I decide to browse the internet on my laptop, which is playing music by my side, to take my mind of it.
T: +0.55 I suddenly realise that I'm experiencing severe time dilation (So following times may be off). Songs fluctuate between sounding too fast and too slow. I try watching a Let's Play on youtube and am frightened by the speed at which the commentator appears to be talking. My anxiety reaches it peak, I feel terrible, although underlying it all is a sense of wellness.
T: +0:56 My friend comes it and I quickly explain what's happening. She seems somewhat concerned and decided to get me to take a drink and then help me into the bathroom - as I'm far too weak. I force myself to go to the toilet. Check of my urine colour tells me i'm generally well hydrated. I make my way back into my room. My friend stays with me for the next hour and a half.
T: +1:00 I slump back down on my bed, music still playing. Check my pulse, it's close to 140. My body is fluctuating between being too hot and too cold - all my bones ache and I generally feel like shit.
T: +1:15 My mind suddenly tunes into what's playing. It's the end of 'Kartoffelsuppe' by 'Grossstadtgeflüster' - which sounds a little like demonic chanting. At the time I didn't realise this was a song, and the demonic aspect, which seems to last forever because of time dilation, literally made me loose what sanity I had left remaining.
T: +1:16 I get up, now with more energy, and begin pacing frantically around my room. I turn off the music and keep talking to a whisper.
T: +1:40 Somewhat distressed I tell my friend I want this to end this now, along with our safe word. She runs off to her room to grab a couple of benzos (Temazepam). I take them immediately and then begin to clean my room to stave off anxiety. I also get rid of the rest of the MDMA instinctively, with my friend agreeing.
T: +2:10 I begin to feel relief from the benzos. Now I'm feeling a lot more mellow and chilled out. I still don't want to listen to music but I chat normally with my friend while resting on my bed. I noticed the time dilation stopped.
T: +2:25 Feeling much better my friend leaves to let me get some rest in peace.
T: +2:40 I take 100mg Quetiapine.
T: +3:10 Quetiapine hits, starting to feel drowsy.
T: +3:20 Decide to call it a night and take another 200mg of quetiapine along with 10mg Melotonin, 500mg 5-HTP, 1500mg Vitamin C, 2400mg Piracetam and various multivitamins.
T: +3:35 I fall asleep.
The next day I awoke with an amazing afterglow. Eyes were slighly dilated and I felt very warm with all my senses greatly enhanced for around three hours after waking. After that I returned to normal and haven't suffered from any major side effects beside my memory being a little hazy for a couple of days.
I'm not sure why I had such a bad experience, although Grossstadtgeflüster turned what was otherwise a bad trip to one filled with utter panic. Some have suggested I experienced a mild bout of stimulant psychosis, whilst others have said that the MDMA was not, in fact, MDMA. I'm not sure myself, and I've got rid of all of what I had so I can't test it. But am interested in what others think - especially as I plan to roll again next week (one month after) with a lower dose (50mg). So any advice would be appreciated. I got some professionally tested MDMA from a friend (everyone got theirs tested after my experience) so I know this time it's defiantly MDMA and nothing else.
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