^ I'd start at 12 mg. I just had an extremely intense trip on 12 mg of the acetate, although I feel like I'm more sensitive than most.
Thank you. I had taken the 16mg before you posted. But wow, you are right - it is incredibly intense.
I haven't had mushrooms for about 9 years, but this reminded me exactly of it, perhaps with even more immersion. Very primal, and extreme time dilation. There's no room to hide from anything on this stuff, it lays you bare to the core and forces you to confront everything. Incredibly cleansing trip, but extremely difficult too. But also very rewarding.
During the most intense waves, it feels like floating in a (hyper)space where there is no solid ground to feel safe with, and you are spinning there desperately trying to keep centred. It was animalistic at the same time as being spiritual. One of those "is this the right or wrong thing to do or think" kind of existential nightmares. "Should I puke or meditate?" :D
4-AcO-DMT seems to have very deep emotional properties. It makes me feel emotionally volatile, producing mood swings that may instantly revert an hour-long session of existential sobbing to an euphoric dancing session, unpredictably. It seems to simply magnify and intensify any experience whether positive or negative, instead of producing a forced uplift.
Yes, there were moments of dark confusion, followed by moments of euphoric clarity. The very nature of this stuff is to amplify your mental and physical response to thoughts and feelings. Negative thoughts drain energy and cause profound confusion and anxiety and make everything dark, whereas positive thoughts instantly bring vitality, euphoria, and fill the place with light. I could literally see the shape of my thoughts and what they were doing to my mind and body.
It was like a constant battle to keep centred on this stuff, but I came out the right end. It can be very exhausting being in constant mindful meditative mode every second just so you don't fly off the handle. I was pretty much forced in to doing some form of yoga almost constantly, although sometimes I needed to just lay down and rest.
It definitely took me by surprise to put it mildly. Nevertheless, it helped me very much in learning to truly love myself and everyone else.
This one sounds like an awesome chemical going by all the feedback.
To me it's impossible -- 4-AcO-DMT always makes me feel extremely uncomfortable, like I'm walking barefoot on a bed of coals, and there is no way I can escape, the red hot ground stretches on for miles and miles in every direction. It has caused me to look very deeply into some problems in my life, which was ultimately rewarding, but regardless I don't think I'll continue to take this chemical if it continues to be so unpleasant.
