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"I have been taking GBL since year 2007. Now it doesn't meter how often. In general long marathons 24/7 and some breakers in between. This December, I mean last December I tried to finish it and stop it in different way than usual cold turkey. So I bought from the "street" 50 x 2mg triangle Indian Xanax pills, and 40 x 1mg Etizolam to be prepare to quit GBL in benzo way. In reality I didn't prepare myself theoretically. So before (september, october) I tried some other benzos, just curiosity, bromazepam, other xanax's, temazepam, lorazepam, diazepam, so probably I had some tolerance builded. I had no withdrawalsyndromes probably because I just switched automatically on GBL (GABA receptors) and that is why I didn't noticed those first syndromes like photophobia, cramps and so on.
Anyway on 21th of December 2012 I stopped GBL and started to mix alcohol 4-8 strong 7.8% lagers every day with Xanax and etizolam in amounts above. There was no plan, no schedule. I just stupidly didn't prepare myself for what I planed to do. I finished those mixes at midnight 28/29th of December. So around 9 days of sleep attempting, mood elevating, doing stupid things. Since 29th of December I am on cold turkey, experiencing muscle twitching, cramps, cold and hot waves, cold sweat, hot sweat, feeling that your heart try very hard to work, tension, unusual heart beat 69 bpm or 72 while normally I have 85 bpm. ringing or pulsating in ears or one ear., blurred vision, voices, photophobia. Almost no sleep or short naps with horror dreams. Saturday I took 20 mg of Propranolol (beta blocker) around 10am, Sunday 10 mg of Propranolol the same time, then Monday 20mg of Propranolol around 10 am, and then 1st of January 10mg of Propranolol around 1am because symptoms above like epinephrine/adrenaline release, sweating and so on were unbearable, something like peak with blackness swirling, dancing, call it seizure maybe. Last night I didn't sleep at all or performed some kind of series of naps not even sure am I sleeping or imagining sleeping. Today I almost did not eat, just drank some soya supplement cocktail. My heart is making experimental beating, slow fast, I must lay down to avoid 150 bpm. To avoid this situation I took 20 mg of Propranolol 3 hours minutes ago and waiting. But still my chest is burning, muscle twitches, high tension...
Now the question is, apart of the stupidity of what have I done, what to do now? I have got nothing apart of betablockers, Melissa, valerian root. I might have some GBL tomorrow on Thursday. But it would be a circle another GABA switch, back to the same rails...beside my GABA is really fu**ed up."