That keeps me from taking another piece cause no matter how many pills I ever did I never had droopy eyes, that makes me very upset. I am going to my first meeting tomorrow, it's 45 minutes away cause I can't go to the one near my house for fear someone will see me... I made one huge step.... I told someone, besides you guys. I called a friend who I've been friend with since we were kids and spilled my guts, it was very hard to do but I did it, I admitted I was an addict, told her I've been hiding this for over a year and at the end of the conversation she offered to come with me tomorrow! I feel better, I felt relief after telling you guys, like I finally lifted a weight off me and telling her was even better... This has been a very lonely year, even thou I have a great job, great family and all that jazz I was still very alone.... This drooping of my eyes is annoying!!! I'm fine if I'm moving around but the minute I sit down so do my eyes ?
Sounds like some major progress. Keep up the good work. Just remember that if you take 1 mg of bupe each day by the third day you have over 2 mg's in your system. 2mg of sub in my opinion is almost as strong as the 50 mg of hydro you are trying to stop. Maybe doses of 200-500 mcg much would be more appropriate. 1 mg per day is almost twice the amount given to stage 4 cancer patients who require around the clock pain management. I have watched chronic pain patients comfortably adjust between 25 mcg/hr fent patches to 10 mcg/hr butrans with little if any WD symptoms. I would make sure your last dose is well below 0.5 mg.Oh trust me I won't be telling anyone else, I picked her because she has told me things she only trusted me with, we have a bond all these years later.
My meeting is later today but I will take your advice and look for different ones also.
Today I don't have droopy eyes but I only took one ( of 16 ) piece today. I'm off this weekend so I'll be riding bikes with my youngest and swimming so hopefully that will help if I get droopy eyes
I'm very proud of myself, I always thought I was weak minded, that those pills would forever control my life but I was wrong! Im in control damn it! I started at the gym ( 45 minutes and I thought I was dying lol ) im 45 but in decent shape, I changed my diet completely ( which is tough cause I'm a nurse and eat when we are slow and usually eat a candy bar or something ) and I completely changed my thought process. My main reason for using was the energy those pills gave me but guess what? It's ok to be tired once in awhile, I don't have to be full of energy 24/7, I'm human!!!!!
You don't realize how much I appreciate just seeing you guys reply to my crazy posts!