DoDrugsForTheLulz
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 30, 2009
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Hey. This turned out to be a bit of a rant.
First order of business, I have no idea why I registered under this username. Perhaps I was e-tarded. With this out of the way, I take it as most of the people here are recreational drug users, you're all fairly familiar with anxiety.
I was skimming a page on here just the other day and read something that caught my attention and I couldn't get it out of my head for a while.
In retrospect, I've long been suffering from anxiety. I grew up in a Eastern European country, moved to the US at a rather tender age, had to learn English in a midst of a complete and utter culture shock, among a million other things. And even in my childhood I remember myself being super sensitive, I guess. That I attributed to being in and out of hospitals all the time. Anyway,
Up until very recently I figured that my anxiety was caused by a horrible mushroom trip that I had a couple of years back - that's when I started experiencing rather frequent panic attacks, and in turn, panic in anticipation of more panic attacks (isn't it funny how that works?) but like I was saying I was on this board and someone's post read "... it's due to excessive free-flowing adrenaline, try beta-blockers". I have in fact heard of beta blockers before as anxiety treatment but now it makes complete sense.
For instance, every time I feel like speaking up in class and I can't do it right away, the anticipation starts building up and I start FREAKING OUT - I've had this for so long I didn't even consider it this way - but my heart starts pounding, head flushing, breaths become deeper, etc - standard unpleasant adrenaline rush. Same with public speaking (although this is fairly common) and any sort of public performance, including sometimes even the conversation; that I rationalized as being a relic of learning a language "the hard way", but it never occurred to me before that "normal" people don't have it.
It's almost as if I've habituated my life to a constant small level of anxiety. However, after I work out really hard, for a short while - all of my anxiety goes away. My mother has the same thing and I suspect my gramps does as well, though they never ever told me about this running in the family.
Have you guys ever heard anything of this free flowing adrenaline? Any experience with the beta blockers?
I was meaning to see a shrink at some point soon, I would hate to resort to benzodiazephines.
First order of business, I have no idea why I registered under this username. Perhaps I was e-tarded. With this out of the way, I take it as most of the people here are recreational drug users, you're all fairly familiar with anxiety.
I was skimming a page on here just the other day and read something that caught my attention and I couldn't get it out of my head for a while.
In retrospect, I've long been suffering from anxiety. I grew up in a Eastern European country, moved to the US at a rather tender age, had to learn English in a midst of a complete and utter culture shock, among a million other things. And even in my childhood I remember myself being super sensitive, I guess. That I attributed to being in and out of hospitals all the time. Anyway,
Up until very recently I figured that my anxiety was caused by a horrible mushroom trip that I had a couple of years back - that's when I started experiencing rather frequent panic attacks, and in turn, panic in anticipation of more panic attacks (isn't it funny how that works?) but like I was saying I was on this board and someone's post read "... it's due to excessive free-flowing adrenaline, try beta-blockers". I have in fact heard of beta blockers before as anxiety treatment but now it makes complete sense.
For instance, every time I feel like speaking up in class and I can't do it right away, the anticipation starts building up and I start FREAKING OUT - I've had this for so long I didn't even consider it this way - but my heart starts pounding, head flushing, breaths become deeper, etc - standard unpleasant adrenaline rush. Same with public speaking (although this is fairly common) and any sort of public performance, including sometimes even the conversation; that I rationalized as being a relic of learning a language "the hard way", but it never occurred to me before that "normal" people don't have it.
It's almost as if I've habituated my life to a constant small level of anxiety. However, after I work out really hard, for a short while - all of my anxiety goes away. My mother has the same thing and I suspect my gramps does as well, though they never ever told me about this running in the family.
Have you guys ever heard anything of this free flowing adrenaline? Any experience with the beta blockers?
I was meaning to see a shrink at some point soon, I would hate to resort to benzodiazephines.