Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
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So iv been smoking crack for about 8 years . was rare in the first few years. Then every time i drank now its damn near ever day it has taken my life over.its insane...if i hear the word crack or stuff or hard i instantly need to take a shit lol does anybody else need to drop a deuce when the anxiety or jonse kicks in? Also iv developed what i believe to be a hole in my brain from almost 15 years of heavy drug use. And specifically crack triggers it i get this weird fuzzy feeling in the same spot inside my head and i develop a twitch. I have a hard time breathing and i cant seem to get my. Words out my neck and mouth flex but nothing comes out... Has anyone else dealt with this? Im starting to get very concerned about it but the drugs win the fight. Instead of going to a doctor every time.. Does any one else have significant side effects/ permanent damage from their drug abuse? I wanna compare notes lol
I highly doubt you have any holes in your brain. Cocaine can effect some difficult changes, but they should be quite reversible. Neuroplasticity is great thing
You will have to stop using cocaine to benefit and allow yourself to heal though. And cocaine can be notoriously difficult, particularly with cravings.
Have you read Carl Hart’s research on chronic cocaine users? Some very interesting research, definitely worth it. Your body-mind are more capable and resilient than you might imagine.
Likewise, something I have found very helpful is mindfulness based relapse prevention. Particularly riding the waves of cravings practice. It can be difficult to find a facilitator depending on where you live, but it’s worth looking into.
Would you mind exploring your concerns with significant side effects and permanent damage with us? Curious to hear more about this specifically.
I’ve experienced this with other drugs, not cocaine, and I’ve actually found that working with the changes can actually be pretty helpful. With something like this Ive found it useful thinking of it as a kind of disability.