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In Memory of Gillywin (28 October 1983 - 17 June 2005)

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Gillian was an all-round amazing person. She was a valuable contributor to bluelight as a whole, which is evidenced by the outpouring of love for her in the "Bluelight remembers Gillywin" thread. The Perth (Western Australia) bluelight community felt her loss keenly, as Gilly heralded from perth and they are a tight bunch who spent alot of time with her. Her posts attracted alot of positive attention from the greater Australian Bluelight community, as she seemed to have found the perfect balance of being able to joke around, but maintain seriousness when it was called for.

Below is a poem read by her brother, Jonny, at her funeral:

Gillian


i have heard people say, you don't know what you've got till its gone
but i always knew, i've known all along
coz theres a hole in my heart, that i'll never fill
because theres someone missing
and we called her gill
she had a smile that could light up the world
such a caring intelligent and beautiful girl
i wonder if she knows how much i've missed her
and that i'd do anything to have her back, to have my little sister
but theres one thing ii'mtthankfulfor, that i had the chance
to be that lucky person who shared her last dance
i'll never forget the look on her face,as i spun her around
and she never stopped smiling, even when she sat down
i think of these good times we had in the past
and as far as sisters go,she really kicked ass
my love for her was like a love for no other, and i know she felt the same
coz she called me brother
to my sister i still have here , claire, i just want you to know
i love you so much, and together we'll grow
we need to be strong, and we ddon'thave to hide
coz gills still standing here right by our side
the only thing now, is she looks down from above
but i know that shes there coz i can still feel her love
i wish i could write more, but i cant even think
coz my hearts filled with sorrow, and all i can do now is sink
so now its goodbye, uuntilwe meet again
i've lost more than my sister, you were also my friend​


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Gilly....

Very well done Samadhi, thank you.




I'm still missing you Gilly! I'll never forget you matey



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Man, this was just all to sad. I know it always sounds the same when you hear its such a waste. But this really was such a waste. One of the nicest people i have met, who seemed like there was nothing wrong. If only we had known that below that exuberant, wonderful beautiful exterior was something so dark it ended up consuming her.

Goodbye Gilly, we will miss you sooooo much more that you can ever understand.
 
Your posts always brightened my day. Even though I never knew you beyond that, you're sorely missed Gilly.
 
Babe, I still think about you all the time. I wish you had found that one thing we all need to keep going. Saying your death was a waste seems to cheapen what you offered people when you were alive. You were a beautiful person, people loved and cared about you. I won't forget.
 
I haven't been here long enough to know who Gilly was but it's obvious she touched a lot of people's hearts and souls in her time here. I too lost a friend to suicide 2 years ago so I understand some of the emotions that people may be feeling over this tragedy. My condolensces to all :(
 
merry christmas and a happy new year....to all the bluelighters who knew gillywin..we all went and spent the morning with gilly, and i bought her a new xmas snowdome, as i have done for many years now, we played it at the grave, and i will still add to her collection every year, im sure she was smiling down and saw it. still loved and missed every day. our gillian
 
that's beautiful :)

i'm so glad you and your family have been able to share this part of gilly's life - as you can see she was admired, loved and respected tremendously by all who came into contact with her.

she will always be missed, and always be in our hearts.

<3
 
Merry Christmas Gilly! and to the rest of the Kirk family hope ya'll have a safe and Happy New Years =D
 
Best wishes for the New Year Gillywinmum... sending you and your family much love. I haven't seen you in a little while so hope you are well :)

I miss Gill so much and she is in my thoughts always.

Spending New Years without her was very sad and her absence was definitely something we all felt.

She would of been the first on the floor dancing to Jonny's tunes!

Love you Gill xxx
 
You popped into my head this evening Gilly.

Much love gorgeous girl. :)
 
Pagan Prayer

Be free, be strong, be proud of who you have been, know that
you will be mourned and missed, that no one can replace
you, that you have loved and are beloved.​

Move beyond form, flowing like water, feeding on sunlight
and moonlight, radiant as the stars in the night sky. Pass
the gates, enter the dark without fear, returning to the
womb of life to steep in the cauldron of rebirth. Res, heal,
grow young again. Be blessed​
 
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Still haven't erased your number from my phone. It's almost a year to the day when I got that phonecall from your best friend. I hated being on the other side of the country away from home and all the people and places that were close to you. You were an exceptional person, one of the most amazing people I met through this place. Your sorely missed and will never be forgotten. :(
 
How Many Steps...

Poem's I aint good at,
flat feelin' comes outta
my finger's
Shouta name
Whinge's -
about somethin' simple
Run outta... this ... that...
Nice.
Real nice Iffa knew how to make it
(do I have the 'hide') to Slllllllllide.....


...I have your eye on my wall...

Watch.

You know little, but I'm sure you care
(gosh!!...)

I always think,
yeah,
don't make itmakeitfair- so I still stare
an' hide...

Sink, auto,
takes fo' me sin, will & gin.
With a greetin' grin,
but not till time,
& I got a stu-pid wall ta's climb...

LOVE
UnS
 
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