Hi.
New member, long time reader. I've been spurred to join as I've now decided to get totally clean. I've been an opiate addict for 11 years, from the age of 17. I got into speed the last three years. Self detoxed from the meth 9 months ago, with A LOT of love and support from my partner in crime. Haven't looked back. Now I'm on day 10 of no codeine, after a relapse. I came off codeine last September, bit went back not long after. The physical wd is mostly over, a few residual aches and pains, headache, yawning and sneezing still. What I'm struggling with is the feeling of emptiness I've been left with. I know I need to find a new source of happiness, keep myself busy, but I have no motivation for anything, no energy, I feel hollow all the time. I'm not sure what normal is anymore, I've been codeine normal for a third of my life. Is there anyone who has or does feel like this?
Thanks for sticking with me, reaching out when I'm filled with such shame and anger is terrifying.
New member, long time reader. I've been spurred to join as I've now decided to get totally clean. I've been an opiate addict for 11 years, from the age of 17. I got into speed the last three years. Self detoxed from the meth 9 months ago, with A LOT of love and support from my partner in crime. Haven't looked back. Now I'm on day 10 of no codeine, after a relapse. I came off codeine last September, bit went back not long after. The physical wd is mostly over, a few residual aches and pains, headache, yawning and sneezing still. What I'm struggling with is the feeling of emptiness I've been left with. I know I need to find a new source of happiness, keep myself busy, but I have no motivation for anything, no energy, I feel hollow all the time. I'm not sure what normal is anymore, I've been codeine normal for a third of my life. Is there anyone who has or does feel like this?
Thanks for sticking with me, reaching out when I'm filled with such shame and anger is terrifying.