Hi dank-
You're in a very bad way. You've got to start at least trying to eat while you drink, or drink a glass of water with every drink. Dilute the poison. Then, hopefully you can afford to get some Prilosec. It is NOT a quick fix, but works on the molecular level and will help clear up some of the ulcers. I'm afraid it won't cure them, you're way past that. But the way it works is you take ONE once a day. Never miss a day and don't waist them by taking more. They aren't an antacid. One, every day. It'll take a couple of weeks to feel better, so be patient.
But then you'll be in line to drink more if you feel better. So you've got to see a doctor. Get yourself to the hospital, and tell them you are indigent. You'll need to fill out a lot of paperwork that want you to prove it, so think about that. If you're renting a two thousand dollar house, that won't look good on the paperwork. But they are bound as doctors to treat you, money or not. If you can not declare indigentcy, you can pay them five dollars a month if you have to. If you have any credit, paying them, even a small amount won't screw with your credit.
You sound resigned to letting the alcohol win. That's very sad. There is so much that goes with the business of alcoholism, you need much more than Prilosec. You need to think about AA. People will give you a ride if you don't have a car. What you need most right now is to talk about the things that are making you drink, and have supportive people there so you're not alone trying to fight this monster. Please give it a try. It's free and they will accept you no matter how bad you are. They've all been there. Please think about it.
I wish you the best. You're up against a huge battle, but with people there to help you, you can win.
Please keep me posted. Let me know what you do today. And tomorrow, even if it's just drinking a glass of water. I'll be watching for your post.