I was just wondering what the general idea is for the dosage of particular benzos for a stimulant comedown? I only take benzos when I absolutely need them, which is usually a meth comedown. MDMA and mephedrone are usually ok without extra help, but I can't take the insomnia and get a weird tremor from meth that only benzos fix. Plus vasconstriction, as I have circulation problems!
Anyway, my point is, I've been noticing that it's become increasingly difficult to get any relief with benzos or at least at the level I desire. Now, I shouldn't have any tolerance as I only use at most once a week, on a comedown or maybe once more on the off chance I have a panic attack for other reasons. But I'm still worried my dosages are getting to high and I don't want to raise them too high for fear of an adverse reaction + raising my tolerance too high for the times I actually need my benzos for anxiety, unrelated to comedowns. Plus, benzos are hard to get and I don't want to go through another round of doctor shopping anytime soon. Am I doing something wrong my benzo dosages? And is mixing benzos a bad idea? Is trying to actually fall asleep and stay asleep impossible on a meth comedown?
This was my last 'benzo cocktail' for a meth/mephedrone comedown:
- 0.5mg Klonopin: started to get muscle tremor in fingers. Took the pill and it went away pretty quickly. Was good for three hours or so, just lay in bed and got some rest but could not fall asleep for my life.
- 1mg Ativan: Started to get the tremor again, plus I was conscious of my heart beating too fast. Wanted to get back to baseline and avoid a panic attack. Ativan is mildly affective and I am able to lie down again and get a couple of hours more rest. No sleep.
- 5mg Valium: Can't stand the insomnia anymore, so I give in and take my valium. Also worried because it's 15+ hours since my last dose and my heart is still thumping like a jack hammer (I always have a racing heart for days after dosing, which worries me tremendously in regards to cardiovascular damage, but that's another post...). Amazingly, the Valium works and I get some sleep.
- 2mg Valium: Wake up at 3 in the morning. Can't get back to sleep, but anxiety free. After a couple of hours of mildly entertaining hallucinations (sleep deprivation can be fun when the benzos take away the anxiety!), I get bored and take some more V. Takes another hour before I fall asleep.
I ended up waking up at 10 in the morning, still tired as fuck, but unable to sleep. This is my biggest beef with speed comedowns. is there a better way to handle it? Is it better to take one big dose of benzos and hope you just pass out for 12 hours? I'm sick of waking up and having to redose and waiting to fall asleep again.
I also have tempaz (5mg) which I have used with some success. Taken one and a half of those with some Valium and Ativan before to get to sleep for about 5 hours. But I'm still not getting what I want, which is no muscle tremors (I need a benzo with strong muscle relaxant qualities), lowers my heart rate (can't sleep even if I'm tired if my heart is racing), puts me to sleep and keeps me asleep! I used to be able to just take a tempaz and be good, but these days it's harder and I'm worried about the amount and variety of benzos I'm taking. on top of after being out at parties and drinking (although I barely drink when I'm high, really).
It just gets to a point where I'd do anything for a nice, peaceful sleep. My body is so tired, but it just won't fall asleep, and I feel the benzos aren't working. Either I'm not dosing properly in terms of the benzos I'm choosing, when I take them and how much. So advice is appreciated!
And harm reduction of course. I don't want to end up in the midst of a harrowing meth comedown and make the wrong choice, which are very easy to make when you feel so ill and tired and will do anything to fall asleep. For me benzos have always been a trial and error, but I just can't work out the right cocktail anymore. Ativan and Valium used to work well for sleep and anti muscle spasms, but it's just not quite working anymore. Temaz also seems to have much worse rebound anxiety. Valium is barely noticeable for me, and Ativan is a breeze (of course much too short duration on its own, but great for major attacks on comedowns).
I know that a lot of it is about just waiting it out, but I feel like I'm doing something wrong and wasting my benzos. Do people comedown off meth successfully without benzos? I can't even imagine it. My muscle tremors are so bad without benzos I think I'd end up having a seizure or something. Plus I just can't see how having your heart beat so fast for so long and with no food wouldn't lead to a heart attack. We're talking two-three days if you only dose for one night (which most people don't, I guess, but I never go beyond one night, up to 3points atm but that's rare for me).
Anyway, my point is, I've been noticing that it's become increasingly difficult to get any relief with benzos or at least at the level I desire. Now, I shouldn't have any tolerance as I only use at most once a week, on a comedown or maybe once more on the off chance I have a panic attack for other reasons. But I'm still worried my dosages are getting to high and I don't want to raise them too high for fear of an adverse reaction + raising my tolerance too high for the times I actually need my benzos for anxiety, unrelated to comedowns. Plus, benzos are hard to get and I don't want to go through another round of doctor shopping anytime soon. Am I doing something wrong my benzo dosages? And is mixing benzos a bad idea? Is trying to actually fall asleep and stay asleep impossible on a meth comedown?
This was my last 'benzo cocktail' for a meth/mephedrone comedown:
- 0.5mg Klonopin: started to get muscle tremor in fingers. Took the pill and it went away pretty quickly. Was good for three hours or so, just lay in bed and got some rest but could not fall asleep for my life.
- 1mg Ativan: Started to get the tremor again, plus I was conscious of my heart beating too fast. Wanted to get back to baseline and avoid a panic attack. Ativan is mildly affective and I am able to lie down again and get a couple of hours more rest. No sleep.
- 5mg Valium: Can't stand the insomnia anymore, so I give in and take my valium. Also worried because it's 15+ hours since my last dose and my heart is still thumping like a jack hammer (I always have a racing heart for days after dosing, which worries me tremendously in regards to cardiovascular damage, but that's another post...). Amazingly, the Valium works and I get some sleep.
- 2mg Valium: Wake up at 3 in the morning. Can't get back to sleep, but anxiety free. After a couple of hours of mildly entertaining hallucinations (sleep deprivation can be fun when the benzos take away the anxiety!), I get bored and take some more V. Takes another hour before I fall asleep.
I ended up waking up at 10 in the morning, still tired as fuck, but unable to sleep. This is my biggest beef with speed comedowns. is there a better way to handle it? Is it better to take one big dose of benzos and hope you just pass out for 12 hours? I'm sick of waking up and having to redose and waiting to fall asleep again.
I also have tempaz (5mg) which I have used with some success. Taken one and a half of those with some Valium and Ativan before to get to sleep for about 5 hours. But I'm still not getting what I want, which is no muscle tremors (I need a benzo with strong muscle relaxant qualities), lowers my heart rate (can't sleep even if I'm tired if my heart is racing), puts me to sleep and keeps me asleep! I used to be able to just take a tempaz and be good, but these days it's harder and I'm worried about the amount and variety of benzos I'm taking. on top of after being out at parties and drinking (although I barely drink when I'm high, really).
It just gets to a point where I'd do anything for a nice, peaceful sleep. My body is so tired, but it just won't fall asleep, and I feel the benzos aren't working. Either I'm not dosing properly in terms of the benzos I'm choosing, when I take them and how much. So advice is appreciated!
And harm reduction of course. I don't want to end up in the midst of a harrowing meth comedown and make the wrong choice, which are very easy to make when you feel so ill and tired and will do anything to fall asleep. For me benzos have always been a trial and error, but I just can't work out the right cocktail anymore. Ativan and Valium used to work well for sleep and anti muscle spasms, but it's just not quite working anymore. Temaz also seems to have much worse rebound anxiety. Valium is barely noticeable for me, and Ativan is a breeze (of course much too short duration on its own, but great for major attacks on comedowns).
I know that a lot of it is about just waiting it out, but I feel like I'm doing something wrong and wasting my benzos. Do people comedown off meth successfully without benzos? I can't even imagine it. My muscle tremors are so bad without benzos I think I'd end up having a seizure or something. Plus I just can't see how having your heart beat so fast for so long and with no food wouldn't lead to a heart attack. We're talking two-three days if you only dose for one night (which most people don't, I guess, but I never go beyond one night, up to 3points atm but that's rare for me).