I'd like to hear some discussion about after effects of MDMA that I'd call mid-term effects; these are effects experienced beginning a few days after using MDMA and lasting for 4 to 8 weeks afterward.
I'm a long-term user who over a period of close to a decade did the MDMA cycle of moderate, then frequent and now rare use. Now that I have much longer to recover between periods of using MDMA, I'm becoming acutely aware of these mid-term effects.
For me they last roughly 4 to 8 weeks with some of them ending very suddenly and others slowly diminishing over time. Several key features are that my social anxiety (which I normally manage very well) becomes much more prominent, I have trouble getting out of bed in the mornings and my motivation at work and in my personal life takes a big hit. I'm normally quite an enthusiastic, optimistic person but life takes on a bit of a pall and I feel somewhat "flat" and apathetic.
Some of the more troubling mid-term after effects for me are that my sex drive is for all intents and purposes completely lost for a period of two or more months. I can still perform sexually but it becomes much more this pleasure-neutral thing "to do" instead of having any real sexual drive or desire. This particular effect ends abruptly when one day about 2 or 3 months later I suddenly get a big wave of sexual desire and breathe a sign of relief that "it's back".
Another interesting effect for me is that nearly without fail after using MDMA I gain a significant amount of weight in the month that follows. For example, I used MDMA 3.5 weeks ago and have gained 9 pounds since then. Every time this happens I end up losing this weight through diet and exercise, but a 6 to 10+ pound gain has been associated with nearly every MDMA episode for the past couple of years.
It seems obvious as I post this that I should never touch MDMA again, but the pleasure response being what it is, I'm obviously not at a point where my brain feels the mid-term effects outweigh the short-term pleasure.
I'm wondering if this is perhaps a form of short-term mild clinical depression brought about by using MDMA? I've never really experienced any depression problems in my life, but it kind of aligns with what I've read about depression.
Anybody else get anything like this?
I'm a long-term user who over a period of close to a decade did the MDMA cycle of moderate, then frequent and now rare use. Now that I have much longer to recover between periods of using MDMA, I'm becoming acutely aware of these mid-term effects.
For me they last roughly 4 to 8 weeks with some of them ending very suddenly and others slowly diminishing over time. Several key features are that my social anxiety (which I normally manage very well) becomes much more prominent, I have trouble getting out of bed in the mornings and my motivation at work and in my personal life takes a big hit. I'm normally quite an enthusiastic, optimistic person but life takes on a bit of a pall and I feel somewhat "flat" and apathetic.
Some of the more troubling mid-term after effects for me are that my sex drive is for all intents and purposes completely lost for a period of two or more months. I can still perform sexually but it becomes much more this pleasure-neutral thing "to do" instead of having any real sexual drive or desire. This particular effect ends abruptly when one day about 2 or 3 months later I suddenly get a big wave of sexual desire and breathe a sign of relief that "it's back".
Another interesting effect for me is that nearly without fail after using MDMA I gain a significant amount of weight in the month that follows. For example, I used MDMA 3.5 weeks ago and have gained 9 pounds since then. Every time this happens I end up losing this weight through diet and exercise, but a 6 to 10+ pound gain has been associated with nearly every MDMA episode for the past couple of years.
It seems obvious as I post this that I should never touch MDMA again, but the pleasure response being what it is, I'm obviously not at a point where my brain feels the mid-term effects outweigh the short-term pleasure.
I'm wondering if this is perhaps a form of short-term mild clinical depression brought about by using MDMA? I've never really experienced any depression problems in my life, but it kind of aligns with what I've read about depression.
Anybody else get anything like this?
