I am currently two years into a methadone treatment from a two and a half year IV oxi addiction (and heroin when I could not get that). Im now tapering. never relapsed and the tapering is going well. I know my zopiclone tolerence is high, and its true I am looking for some kind of relaxation, I have another thread discussing how once a week i take a heavy dose of methadone, which only so far has been about 20 extra, im extremely functional and to tell you the truth ive suffered from oxi, heroin, methadone, valium and z, withdrawels and you are correct about that. Im not reckless with my recover I do not take bottles at a time and dont stray too far away from whats perscribed. I loved the highs i used to get and what DubNaut said is a given, thats why i posted. With 2 years of being clean and only taking the medicine I have I am finding myself craving a high when I am not busy or focused on work or school. Whether it be from Zopiclone or methadone, I will not use heroin or Oxis as it wouldnt do anything either way and im not looking to go down that path, Just correctly self medicate to get off once in a while.
Thanks for the responses.
PS I appreciate everyone's concern and Ive been through hell and back with all this shit, I know Im dancing around my recovery but it is what it is, I do not expect people to agree. Just looking for an idea to solve the mental cravings of a previous life.
To look at that post and get a sense of what Im really saying here is the link, and as i stated in the other thread....
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/626489-Methadone-Question
Without sounding like an asshole I subscribed to this forum because I found numerous posts of people trying get fuck around and get high, and discussing the ins and outs. Im not looking for a support group, and I know my actions are not the correct ones but it is what it is.