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Xanax Full Recovery

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GetMeBackToNormal

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Posted a couple of topics on this site before, but I'm just wondering how long Xanax symptoms will last. Apparently I took a mg on Jan 22nd, but the one that hit me the hardest was during October, when I took a 2mg bar, then was sold 3 2mg bars and ended up doing them one night in November. My symptoms are problems with my cognition, vertigo at times, easily ticked, lack of emotion, anxiety, etc. I was at a much worse stage just a couple weeks ago, and I'm assuming the months closer to November were horrible since I can literally remember little of those months. How much longer until I'm perfect again, and what can I do to speed up the process? Thanks.
 
Things that i found helpful during xanax withdrawal. Your GABA levels are propably out of whack, because benzos mess with them. GABA is your brains natural tranqulaizer and neurotransmitter, xanax in your body for long periods means that your body stops producing GABA. If you are not diabetic, you should try strict ketogenic diet. People with epileptic seizures can even stop benzo medication with ketogenic diet because the diet increases GABA and it has anti-seizure properties. If you have no medical issues with blood sugar, I suggesr you to try ketogenic diet, for I personally felt it improved my condition during my withdrawal. Remember that induction phase where you adjust to ketosis may take weeks and you will start to feel benefits maybe after 3 or 4 weeks. Do not take any benzos for they will hinder your recovery. You got nothing to lose.
 
Are you 100% recovered? Could you think as if you were a child again with memory, comprehension, and creativity all merged together? I was so talented and now I have a blankness to me
 
GetMeBackToNormal said:
Are you 100% recovered? Could you think as if you were a child again with memory, comprehension, and creativity all merged together? I was so talented and now I have a blankness to me
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So you took some xanax for a few days in october, november and january? You do know you have to take a benzos for at least a week straight before you get withdrawals when you stop? Unless you take a shitload. Whatevers wrong with you, its not because of your small benzo use. Ive taken xanax 3 times a week for quite a long time, never more than 2 days in a row, and ive had no withdrawal symtoms when I take a break from it

Think you should see a doctor, cos it aint your tiny xanax use that has you screwed up
 
I am experiencing withdrawal. I took 6 mg in one night in October and a .5 in January, which probably resparked the October withdrawal. I know I am going through withdrawal, I want to know how to make things better. My memory is coming back as is my ability to utilize my memory but I still have something blocking off my will. When I use my memory, especially of the night in October, it's as if I'm watching my memory rather than living it. And I've taken Xanax a numerous amount of times over the past four years, but that night in October was the night that hit me hard.
 
I'm not clear on how long you were taking Xanax for, it takes several weeks of daily use to create an dependance, binging every few weeks may have left you with some kind of psychological issues but they could not possibly cause down regulation of your GABA receptors and hence withdrawal symptoms, sustained use is required to do that.

I'm not belittling you current issues merely trying to clarify the facts.

I was heavily dependent on diazepam for sometime but managed to taper off in the end, on rare occasions I still take the odd one but never get any quantity. I've dabbled with Xanax and sound that its shorter half life and more pronounced effects are more appealing but leave me feeling very anxious and depressed after moderate use.

Assuming you weren't using daily for weeks or months, my feeling is that you have suffered rebound anxiety, it will pass in time but my advice would be to stop looking back on the reasons or worrying about permanent damage as that is almost certainly not the case and it just adds to the anxiety cycle.

If it helps at all I used 200mg+ of diazepam daily for months at a time, whilst in this dreadful mess my cognition was affected but my estimate would be that within 6 months or less of stopping I have no discernible problems from it, I have a complex technical job which if anything is more challenging than ever so I believe I would know if I had serious problems. My anxiety and depression however continue to be a problem but they existed before the benzos
 
Is this rebound anxiety preventing me from "doing"? I feel as if everything I do is a response, although my responses have gotten much better...Hell, when someone asked me to hang out later before we graduated, my response was "thank you"...-_- "Thank you?!?!"
 
GetMeBackToNormal said:
Is this rebound anxiety preventing me from "doing"? I feel as if everything I do is a response, although my responses have gotten much better...Hell, when someone asked me to hang out later before we graduated, my response was "thank you"...-_- "Thank you?!?!"
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Anxiety is just that and it can manifest in many forms, your anxious about your anxiety as well which is understandable and common but you can see how that is a vicious circle.

Anxiety can cripple your ability to function in all sorts of ways and make social situations really hard, I personally suffer many of these things in some way or another.

I often say this but I'll do so again as I firmly believe it, you can't untake the drugs and you will never know what part they play in your current state of mind, there is no cure a doctor can give you for your symptoms......and you do not want to ever be normal ;)

If you feel things are improving then that's great, keep taking small steps to socialise and be active. The more you interact with others the less you will question everything you are saying and doing.....don't tell anyone but most people are a bit weird and those that arent are be definition even more so.

If after another few weeks you still feel this is a problem that is affecting your life I would seek some counseling, I found CT really useful. The background of my drug taking and mental health issues were irrelevant to the process, your anxious about things, whatever they are, maybe the Xanax triggered this episode but now you are suffering anxiety ans should treat it as such.

Don't let this issue fester if it isnt resolving itself as it may become worse, many people suffer anxiety at some stage in their lives for many reasons, it's noting to be ashamed about and talking therapies would be where I would start, I suspect you may be sceptical about such things helping, I was but CBT helped me more than any of the medications I've tried and the learnings last forever.
 
I'm just tired of responding and not being able to do. By trying to do, I literally curl up into a ball and everything just squeezes, mind and body, leading to my brain fire. Do people even fully recover from Xanax withdrawal or do they just believe they do..
 
FEDOR85 said:
So you took some xanax for a few days in october, november and january? You do know you have to take a benzos for at least a week straight before you get withdrawals when you stop? Unless you take a shitload. Whatevers wrong with you, its not because of your small benzo use. ,,,
Think you should see a doctor, cos it aint your tiny xanax use that has you screwed up
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This is true. Unless you had an extremely unusual reaction to these I think there may be some coincidence going on. Are you certain you took what you believe you took?
 
GetMeBackToNormal said:
I'm just tired of responding and not being able to do. By trying to do, I literally curl up into a ball and everything just squeezes, mind and body, leading to my brain fire. Do people even fully recover from Xanax withdrawal or do they just believe they do..
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I know of no one that has permanent damage from the kind of Xanax use you are reporting, it has been shown that very long term (years) of benzo use can effect cognition.

You need to try and stop thinking of this as 'xanax withdrawal', maybe the xanax triggered this anxiety issue but that isnt withdrawal, benzo withdrawal is the result of the down regulation of receptors in your brain, these recover over time, usually a few months is use was heavy.

Putting aside how you got to where you are you are clearly in distress, I can't diagnose you over the internet (and I'm not a doctor) but I relate to things you are saying as I've been mentally ill myself ( I guess I still am to a lesser extent)

You do not have to just suck this up and hope it goes away, you need to seek medical help, the first time I saw a doctor about m,y depression was years too late, I'd taken more drugs than I care to mention by that time but I still believe my problems stretched way back into my childhood, in some cases I had used drugs to deal with these issues but I didnt see it that way at the time. I could blame my heavy use of MDMA for my acute depression but I know that it had started long before that.

We are all a complex product of our past, everything is in the mix and trying to unpick each cause and effect just won't help.

Have you seen a doctor and explained these symptoms ? if not do so. If you did and didnt get help go see another doctor. I left my illness so long that I almost checked out early on my family and loved ones.

PM me anytime, your not alone and you will not always feel this bad, of that I can assure you <3
 
I don't mind the problems, I just want to know that I will become a functional human being again, it honestly just sucks when you see these mental abilities that you lack or the coherence of the mental abilities put together, and I sent you a pm of some of the things that I noticed and remembered of what's wrong with me.
 
PMd you back.

As an observation you communicate fully coherently and with articulation here, read my PM and know this isnt a permanent situation
 
Thanks man, I read your PM and it was very nurturing and I kind of see a light at the end of the tunnel I guess. So these symptoms went away? Especially the blank look in the mirror? And your kids are extremely intelligent and you don't believe they're any slower because of analyzing and following you? One fear I have is that I'm not worthy for my children, since I believe if I still have these problems (which you gave me assurance that these problems will go away) that they will understand things slower from being around me all of the time. Thanks man, Nick. (forgot to mention that I posted here since there is a 180 minute prevention? in between private messages)
 
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I was totally disconnected, I believe it is sometimes called derealisation, it was my partner that just took me to the hospital, I barely remember it.

I hold down a fairly seniour technical job and have even progressed my career since then. My kids visited me in secure care, the youngest didnt really understand but it's not something we do not speak of in our house and I have spoken to my eldest many times about it and my problems, 1 out of 4 people suffer mental illness, they are just more educated. In some ways my slightly obsessive and obsessional mindset can be an asset and I've no desire to be seen as 'normal' I don't mind being though of as a little odd.

Both my children have no issues at school and are both over achieving and well balanced, I know my eldest was worried about me for a long time and still is a little, I can't change what happened but we talk and I've tried to make her and others close to me understand how I felt at the time and the things I struggle with still. My partner accepts that I don't really like many social situations, I make the effort as and when I can and always if she really needs or wants me to do so, but again we talk about things and I'm as open as I can be although it can be hard for others to understand your viewpoint when you are in the depths of depression or anxious about things you can barely explain.

When I returned to work after about 3 months off my boss said he had no idea I was ill and neither did anyone I worked with, our view of the world is unique and mental illness distorts that view, you may think you behave oddly but others probably don't.

These days I'm OK, still got a decent job, kids are thriving and I still look for ways to improve my outlook and try and recognise negative thinking and pointless obsessing for what it is. Things like symmetry, or lack there of can really distract me, it has now become somewhat of a joke with my partner who can tell when its happening.

It's a question of me living with how I am and not letting it all get out of hand, with the anxiety and self loathing, the counseling and personal work I've done as a result has had the biggest impact on my life but I will always be a work in progress
 
Haha, as long as the kids are thriving then everything's perfect! And you helped one more person in the world, thank you so much. I actually just gained even more these past 3 hours, I feel as if everytime I break down, my body heals just a little bit
 
I have to believe I'm still in withdrawal since I'm still experiencing brain-fire as well as double vision and my right eye moving away, plus my memory gets slightly better each day as well as anxiety.
 
Sounds like you got something else going on, not benzo withdrawal. Taking xanax here and there isn't going to cause the things you're describing. I'd recommend seeing your doctor or psychiatrist if you have one.
 
"I had parasethia for many months, I called it my benzo flu because my entire body burned. It was a constant companion for so long I wondered as you do if it would go away. It will. Mine is gone and has not returned. I know it will for you if you give it time"
It's a Benzo withdrawal symptom and was definitely more pinpointed and a stronger sensation just 2 months ago. I noticed my friend scratches his head and has the brain-fire since he's done Xanax fare more times than me. This symptom never started until I took 6 mgs in one night last October. Keep in mind, I've never actually had a need for Xanax, it was simply for "fun" and that night in October, rather than just taking a quarter of a bar, I took 3 whole bars (2mgs each) while in the Xannied out phase. (Thought someone stole them, but nope, I took them)
 
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