Im so depressed lately after quitting my lexapro about 3 months back. I find myself seeking any drug that will keep me asleep for long periods of time. Whenever im awake i always think about things that tear me apart on the inside..I cannot get over past regrets and things i should have done and shouldnt have done. I have alot of friends and the ability too make social outtings but most of the time i choose not too. I have been bullimic going on around 2 years now and i know its killing me. Sometimes i go without doing it but most of time its a deliberate act of self destruction on my part. I have attempted suicide and left a most unsightly scar on my wrist complete with each 26 stitch hole it took too patch me up. Im so lonely and i seek love but i cannot get over the one that got away..we told each other everything and we both had the same E.D. For some reason things just never worked out and although she mentioned dating once back, she reclined her statement of "we should try dating sometime". Im 16 still in the 9th grade and my parents have decided it would be be for me too withdrawl altogether. Life is really getting rough but i know most of it is all brought upon myself by myself.
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That is unmistakably depression speaking .
It often takes trial and effort, mixing and matching antidepressants, mood stablizers, anti psychotics to bring our demons in check.
You don't have to face this horrible pit with no end in sight.
Your parent's stance, regarding your emotional and metal health is regressive and ignorant .
You need the attention of a sharp, devoted psychiatrist who will work the diagnostics and stand by you through the process of prescribing a workable medicine .
You are in the jackpot as a minor who's parents are so backward. None the less there must be a way to pressure them into accepting modern medicine . If there were a school nurse or counselor available would you present yourself and your illness ?
It often takes trial and effort, mixing and matching antidepressants, mood stablizers, anti psychotics to bring our demons in check.
You don't have to face this horrible pit with no end in sight.
Your parent's stance, regarding your emotional and metal health is regressive and ignorant .
You need the attention of a sharp, devoted psychiatrist who will work the diagnostics and stand by you through the process of prescribing a workable medicine .
You are in the jackpot as a minor who's parents are so backward. None the less there must be a way to pressure them into accepting modern medicine . If there were a school nurse or counselor available would you present yourself and your illness ?
Ok sorry for not being so clear. What i mean by my parents withdrawling me is that they are taking me out of school because of bad social anxiety/paranoia issues plus im 3 years behind. My parents did not want me on the medicine but they did not take me off and even encouraged its use. I chose too go off of it on my own free will so i could "feel again". The bullimia keeps me in a state of mind as such.."Its already too late, your just going too die anyway."