dopamimetic
Bluelighter
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The nature of such experiences makes it hard to describe them and even harder for others to compare of course (and besides that, English is not my native language) - but I am very sure that it was not classic dissociative derealisation phenomena. Dissociatives are kind of my drugs of choice, I have done them numerous times in varying dosages and while they indeed sometimes have comparable "alienity", this was a really different quality I did not experience before and have never again. I can't describe it better, but usually during the dissociation a part of my consciousness remains intact and observes all these things that happen, and feelings are neutral - but I feel them, even more so on such a rather low dose and with tolerance..
This was really maybe the only occasion I actually feared of permanent toxicity / damage..
This was really maybe the only occasion I actually feared of permanent toxicity / damage..