Benzos withdrawal symptoms?

[laCster]

the past 3 months i have been using benzos, mostly klonopin, frequently, every weekend, and if i had some left over i'd take them during the week. the past 2 weeks, i got ahold of more than my usual amount of klonopin and i took it every day, in combination with other drugs(tramadol, alcohol, weed, adderall, hydrocodone, xanax), and atleast 800mg tagamet every time i dosed....what sucks is the anxiety that came with stealing tagamet every week or so :/
i ran out this last sunday and i was doing fine for the first two days, monday i felt really dumb and foggy and i could still feel all that kpin that has been built up in my system...tuesday fucking sucked though, i went to school all depressed and anxious as hell, and i had my first anxiety attack at lunch....then at 12 i left to go to my new psych to try and get a klonopin script... he ends up giving me a xanax script, but my mom says hell no and won't fill it(she knows i smoke pot daily) .....today has been day 3 and i woke up feeling like shit, i couldnt even eat breakfast because my stomach was so upset and when i got to school i threw up last nights diner, and ended up going home at 9...once i got home i threw up again and slept until 30 minutes ago so from 10-4 and i am feeling extra depressed i started to fucking cry i felt so shitty....this happened this summer when i went on a adderall, xanax, klonopin, alcohol binge and atleast 3.5grams mj per day...once i ran out of my pharms i went into a spiraling depression and ended up seeing my first shrink for help.....am i just being a drama queen and should i keep having fun on the weekends, and try to persuade my mom to get my xannies filled, or do i have a serious problem on my hands?

 

[mrflowers00]

you have a very serious problem i should know i take 16 to 30mg of xanax a day for 10 days every month and if i could get more i would do more

 

[laCster]

yah i guess i have to come to terms... but i love that feeling of "i don't give a fuck"
it's going to be hard with the holidays coming up, and i get my first pay check in exactly a week....i'm trying to tell myself to spend less on drugs and save up but it's going to be hard

 

[ChronicHD]

OP: I feel you man, I have similar experiences with benzos and definitely weed (smoke 5+ grams a day for 4 years) and alcohol (have drank heavily 85 out of the last 100 nights). But I'm cautious with my benzo use because it's so addictive. It would be easier to quit now than a year down the road. You should try to get clean now.

 

[BlueberryfishY]

you have a very serious problem i should know i take 16 to 30mg of xanax a day for 10 days every month and if i could get more i would do more

Says the guy that takes 16 to 30mg's of xanax a day...mmmkay.

 

[BlueberryfishY]

the past 3 months i have been using benzos, mostly klonopin, frequently, every weekend, and if i had some left over i'd take them during the week. the past 2 weeks, i got ahold of more than my usual amount of klonopin and i took it every day, in combination with other drugs(tramadol, alcohol, weed, adderall, hydrocodone, xanax), and atleast 800mg tagamet every time i dosed....what sucks is the anxiety that came with stealing tagamet every week or so :/
i ran out this last sunday and i was doing fine for the first two days, monday i felt really dumb and foggy and i could still feel all that kpin that has been built up in my system...tuesday fucking sucked though, i went to school all depressed and anxious as hell, and i had my first anxiety attack at lunch....then at 12 i left to go to my new psych to try and get a klonopin script... he ends up giving me a xanax script, but my mom says hell no and won't fill it(she knows i smoke pot daily) .....today has been day 3 and i woke up feeling like shit, i couldnt even eat breakfast because my stomach was so upset and when i got to school i threw up last nights diner, and ended up going home at 9...once i got home i threw up again and slept until 30 minutes ago so from 10-4 and i am feeling extra depressed i started to fucking cry i felt so shitty....this happened this summer when i went on a adderall, xanax, klonopin, alcohol binge and atleast 3.5grams mj per day...once i ran out of my pharms i went into a spiraling depression and ended up seeing my first shrink for help.....am i just being a drama queen and should i keep having fun on the weekends, and try to persuade my mom to get my xannies filled, or do i have a serious problem on my hands?

NOT to sound like a dick or anything but don't give your mom the fucking scripts, man up and take them in yourself, they are yours not hers, is she a doctor? didn't think so.

 

[laCster]

NOT to sound like a dick or anything but don't give your mom the fucking scripts, man up and take them in yourself, they are yours not hers, is she a doctor? didn't think so.

im underage... i can't fill my scripts so i am virtually powerless to my parents until im 18, if they don't want to fill me up, they don't have to, simple as that, and if i tried to fight back they have all this dirt on me with drugs, they even know about my tramadol seizure and about my daily pot use and they know about me stealing my mom's xanax adderall and klonopin : / and i am still here!...i really want to say some things im holding back because it isn't that simple when your parents provide a roof, food, and now potentially drugs....on the other hand i can bitch them out, get risked getting kicked out, no one to fill my scripts, no one to feed me, and ill have to go back to purchasing my benzos illegally.... we will see though come wednesday, the day of my follow up appointment...i sort of want my mom to hold on to my benzos, because i can pop those minty green pills like candy8)...
...it scares me that at one point in the day all i wanted was klonopin....

 

[darkvein]

they are minty, aren't they?

 

[Thomas29]

Those withdrawal symptoms are expected you should of not gone so over board.