woodspiece
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 20, 2010
- Messages
- 39
i love heroin-any opiate-but really heroin-it works on my depression; works on helping me to focus my energy; keeps me involved with the things i must do in this life--of course there is the little problem of waking up sick and having to re-dose to stay up and running...go cop. But its all good-just a little bother in greater scheme of it all.
but when do you cross the line? from all the energy, the hard work you do, the lack of fear form depression...when do you cross the line...and... then you are using just to stay out of w/ds, going beyond any sane budget for heroin...when you don't bathe for a week or more; never leave the house, which is in shambles and full of filth and you don't care less-accept for that little piece of self-loathing that eats at you...when do you cross the line...no food in the house, you're eating old crackers and pieces of candy form who knows when...you stop answering the phone, or internet or whatever...
and you are rail thin with dark bags and sick now most of the time and the thought of using is disgusting but the alternative is worse...
then you clean up-detox, rehab, subutex, methadone...pick any one--its all good-and you're good again, for a minute or two.
then...you do a line just for the fun of it--just to cop a little buzz to ease the cravings (you tell yourself.)
and then you start all over again--all the highs and sucesss, then you come crashing down yet again--and the cycle just keeps repeating...over and over...
when do you cross the line... ....
but when do you cross the line? from all the energy, the hard work you do, the lack of fear form depression...when do you cross the line...and... then you are using just to stay out of w/ds, going beyond any sane budget for heroin...when you don't bathe for a week or more; never leave the house, which is in shambles and full of filth and you don't care less-accept for that little piece of self-loathing that eats at you...when do you cross the line...no food in the house, you're eating old crackers and pieces of candy form who knows when...you stop answering the phone, or internet or whatever...
and you are rail thin with dark bags and sick now most of the time and the thought of using is disgusting but the alternative is worse...
then you clean up-detox, rehab, subutex, methadone...pick any one--its all good-and you're good again, for a minute or two.
then...you do a line just for the fun of it--just to cop a little buzz to ease the cravings (you tell yourself.)
and then you start all over again--all the highs and sucesss, then you come crashing down yet again--and the cycle just keeps repeating...over and over...
when do you cross the line... ....
