Lindsayrae
Greenlighter
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- May 10, 2011
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So, I must admit, I am a fairly frequent user of cocaine. Although I mostly dip into it after drinking, which is often as well. So, being a frequent user, I'm pretty familiar with the effects of cocaine...I get extremely talkative and outgoing, (I'm really impossible to shut up), and as my mind is racing and my heart is beating faster than it should, my body feels relaxed and almost euphoric. Now, obviously with different cocaine dealers, and the amount it's been cut, it changes slightly, but basically, that is how I react to cocaine. BUT, last night I had a completely different experience, and it concerns me that there was something in there that really shouldn't have been. So my two friends and I bought an eight ball off of this lovely fellow we met at the bar, and as we started doing it, I noticed my mind was almost...slowing down? Hard to explain, but the exact opposite of what I expected to happen... now I was digging into it a little harder than my friends, and the more lines I did, the less I was able to talk. I tried, but my words slurred together, and my friends later said they couldn't understand a thing I was saying...I could not form words properly, and when I tried to tell a story, I would start it, and forget what I was talking about, and I just stuttered and felt completely stupid. I kept trying to redeem myself, and I went into the washroom to splash cold water on my face, but I couldn't do it... I sounded like a blabbering idiot who had no idea what they were talking about. (not like myself at all when i'm on coke) and so we sat down and started passing around the lines pretty constantly, and we all started having the shakes, like.... bad. and when I got up to use the washroom, I fell over, my legs felt like jello, I couldn't process what was going on around me, and it was extremely difficult to do anything at all... everyone else felt pretty much the same... so I just got home about an hour ago, and I'm thinking about how the night went, and it seems to me there had to be something pretty fucked up in there. Would you guys be able to help me on this? What do you think it was? We all agreed it was the most fucked up "cocaine" experience we ever had... we all were pretty paranoid too, and nervous around each other, it was very strange for the group I was with, as we always do cocaine together, and have never had an experience like this. The thing that bothered me the most was my immobility...it was like I couldn't tell my legs to move normally, and my brain felt like a big pile of mush... and I KNEW I wasn't making sense, and I would think about what I would say before I said it, and still came out as complete jibberish... What the hell was in my cocaine!?! 8(
But we cant pretend to guess what was in you coke.. but there are a couple other possibilities you should look at.. everyone starts out with the amazing good time and many of the other symptoms of hypomania but by overdoing it a bit it can swing more toward mania.. and I'm not saying that you are bipolar but levels of stimulant intoxication can mimic levels of hypomania and mania.
... yes he does