I think I just need to quit doing drugs and get sober again. Life was better anyway. Plus it’s so sketchy buying street drugs nowadays. Hope you feel better man
Hey man, sorry I am chiming in a little late here, but hopefully better late than never. Also I know you don't need and aint tryna hear it from me but of all Opiates to be addicted to and using right now without testing every batch every time before use, Heroin has to be among the absolute riskiest. Even in places like AUS where I live the famed purity we had I can assure you is on the decline, however slow.
If you really can just walk away from the drugs like some of us can and you can do whatever for you is needed to either; fill the boredom, or dull the urges out, maybe like myself they just aren't that strong and you can go about your day not a salve to enough of a point to where they aren't problematic, man all I can do is suggest that you do EXACTLY that brother. Let me level with you to because a lot of what I have to say really does boil down to something everyone from every walk of life with or without any kind of agenda has regurgitated. I felt your message when you said a Opiate person through and through, absolutely to the core. I confess that now I take them medically and on doses so slight my old recreational dosages, yet I still at times feel a nice mild high from my medical dose, however I make it a core tenant to take my time off and use them less and less as I get older, more set in life. Ill be the last fucking person to ever lie about this shit I want to be transparent despite my suggestions.
With all that said and done to give it to you real, you can be the most rock solid mother fucker ever and run 10-20+ years clean and still relapse, even if once purely out of a want for a high, and maybe you achieve that and all's good and you don't return to it, or maybe you do. My point here is just remember this shit was fun once if it isn't still. When you are all set in life and at a happy place and just content, it is entirely possible you just don't reach for that stuff ever again. Just know there's a good chance you think or dream about it one day on the off, or see a video or something that just reminds you. Its not weakness and it sure as hell isn't me saying "ohh its always gonna eat at cha, you an addict for life". I truly do not believe that is true for everyone, using or addicted , and I mean no offense here, but if you have your shit together and a life you built and a purpose and your well grounded i dare say its a fuck load harder to just throw your self and everything with it to the fire and watch it burn cause it feels good, you feel me.